For those who think that fair game was cancelled....read this!

Also for those who need inside info on how the cult rips off its members without a care for truth or integrity.

I know Arianne very well, and I know she is open and truthful in what she writes here.

I will get this added to the site with the reposted classic by Ariane Jackson.

Michael.

************************* Ariane Jackson speaks out....
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OT8 denounces Scientology [06 Sep 1996] (courtesy of Tilman Hausherr)
From: tilman@berlin.snafu.de (Tilman Hausherr)

Here Ariane's first message. It didn't make it to the usenet, she agreed that I post it.

Tilman ============ Subject: OT8 denounces Scientology
From: ARIANE JACKSON <106231.2751@compuserve.com>

My name is Ariane Jackson and I intend to share some of the information I have concerning the cult known as Scientology.This information covers the experiences of myself and some of my friends and relatives during many years. Some of this information is supported by very complete, original documentation.

I was involved in Scientology for 17 years and I attained the highest available level, called "New OT8, Truth Revealed". I was also trained as an "auditor" to "Class 6" and I have studied the "technology" of "Class 12". I was a staff member at Flag Service Organization, Inc. in Clearwater, Florida. My husband was involved for 20 years, attained "Clear", was trained as an auditor and was also on staff. My ex-husband was involved for 14 years, attained "OT7, Cause over Life", gave his fortune of several million dollars to Scientology and died at the age of 59, within days of being audited at Flag!

In Dec, 1995 my husband and I approached the "church" of Scientology and requested that steps be taken to repair the damage we had experienced as a result of our involvement. We met with a representative from Flag and specified the damage as clearly as we could. We received three responses. One was on Flag letterhead and was signed "Brian Anderson, Church of Scientology, Flag Service Organization". (I wonder if this is the same "Brian Anderson" that works for the Office of Special Affairs). The letter stated that the way we presented our "cause"(sic) "appears to be blackmail and an attempt to extort funds"

We also discovered another response which had been given to the Procureur Général (Attorney General) for the state of Geneva. This was a request by the Scientology center in Zurich to have us investigated by the police for blackmail and extortion. Not only have we never been in the center in Zurich, we have never spoken to anyone there. (In this complaint they also accused me of having lied as a court witness against the cult and said they would file a separate suit for that. Over 8 months later there is still no suit filed!!). The Procureur Général denied the request. The cult appealed. In the appeal the meeting we had with the Flag representative was referred to and the tape recording of it was transcribed. However, the date of the meeting was falsified and created the appearance that it was held one month earlier than it was. The appeal was denied. The cult requested a hearing. At the hearing the Procureur Général defended his position and indicated he knew that this was an attempt to use the law to prevent us from requesting damages. This appeal was also denied and the cult was ordered to pay our costs.

We received a third response during a live TV broadcast in Paris when I was interviewed and described some of my experiences in the cult. The Scientology representative stated that I had made an offer to withdraw from the show if they paid me 17 million dollars. This I had never done. I have filed a suit for defamation.

Some, but by no means all, of the subjects I will address are as follows:- 1. The destructive effects on myself, on my personality, on my behaviour and on my life of receiving Scientology levels including OT8, auditor training, "ethics", and being subjected to the level of control exercised by Scientology staff on other staff and public.

2. The various methods used to persuade my ex-husband to pay money. These included daylong interviews by groups of salesmen, "investment opportunities", donations to translate a book, donations to "protect Scientology", etc., etc. Two of the "investment opportunities" where he loaned almost half a million dollars in 1989 to a "patron" and a "patron meritorious" of the International Association of Scientologists"(IAS) turned out to be very bad "investments".These two patrons, who were vouched for by other Scientologists, were Jody Darling, Glendale, CA and Hans Rhyner, Weisslingen, Switzerland. They both failed miserably to fulfil the terms of the loan agreements. My ex-husband tried for MORE THAN FOUR YEARS to get them to pay what they owed but failed and actually died in the attempt. Their failure to repay him added to the fact he had given so much of his money to Scientology ruined him financially. The stress arising from his bad financial position aggravated a heart condition for which he could not afford proper medical care and which he had been persuaded Scientology would resolve. This illness killed him before he could recover the money owed to him.

The "church" of Scientology was fully aware of this situation and was actually claiming to be administering "justice" in the affair, since my ex-husband was prohibited, by Scientology policy, from taking ANY legal action. At the time of his death Darling and Rhyner owed him around 650,000 dollars!! This is the "result" obtained by the cult's business and ethics "technology". Darling raised his status in the cult from "patron with honors" to patron meritorious shortly after my ex-husband "invested" in his company. This step is achieved by paying IAS around 150,000 dollars. I will detail Darling's "business dealings" later. He can be seen in Impact #28.

3. The effects of Scientology on my life as a wife and mother, including two divorces, a husband (to whom I was married before the ex-husband already mentioned) who was persuaded by auditing that he was Jesus Christ reincarnated and could perform miracles but could not keep a job to support our three young children. How I allowed my children to be taken from me.

My husband and I, during the period of our involvement, had a total of 4 divorces and 5 marriages with 6 children involved. To prove this problem is not confined to just my husband and I, a review of the marital experiences of all my ex-husbands and his ex-wives gives totals as follows:- for 6 Scientologists, 9 divorces, 11 marriages and 13 children with broken homes. Of these 6 people only 3 are currently married; my husband and myself are two of them. Only two mariages have survived and one of them is mine.( I have just heard that my 16 year old daughter, who is at the cult's center in East Grinstead, England, is MARRIED!) This is the result of the cult's "technology" for resolving marital problems.

4. The results of Scientology involvement on the professional lives of individuals that I have witnessed. During my involvement I was totally unable to achieve any success professionally. My ex-husband went from successful businessman and self-made millionaire pre-cult to bankrupt, no career and physically incapable of working after involvement. I have a list of Scientologists who borrowed from my ex-husband and did not repay him. Either they cannot repay because they are professional failures or they refuse to pay because they are criminals.

5. The so-called "confidential" levels. From OT3 to OT7 all you "handle" is BT's. OT4 is the effects of drugs on them, OT5 is NOTs, OT6 is just a course to train you in more exotic ways of "finding" and "handling" them, and OT7 is application of OT6. The only versions from the Fishman letter still valid are OT1, OT2, OT3, and OT5. OT8 has totally changed and has none of the Fishman version. It is actually just a review of all of the person's auditing and a verification/nullification of discoveries the person has made about himself. It consists of ONE question (in two parts) repeated.

I am very willing to discuss my experiences. I have provided court testimonies and appeared on TV and given magazine interviews and I am willing to do this also.

Ariane Jackson.

August 1996.
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NEW OT8 RUNDOWN [04 Sep 1996] (courtesy of Cornelius Krasel) From: krasel@wpxx02.toxi.uni-wuerzburg.de (Cornelius Krasel)
Subject: Re: NEW OT8 RUNDOWN
Followup-To: alt.clearing.technology,alt.religion.scientology
Date: 4 Sep 1996 10:50:11 GMT
Message-ID: <50jmt3$9ro@winx03.informatik.uni-wuerzburg.de>
Supercedes: <50j6th$9ef$1@mhade.production.compuserve.com>
alt.religion.scientology:116477 [reposted with correct formatting; I added a Reply-To: header -- CK original was written by Ariane Jackson <106231.2751@CompuServe.COM>] NEW OT8 RUNDOWN!!

First, I need to correct a mistake I made when I said the Fishman version of OT5 is still valid, it is NOT. Dennis pointed this out to me. I had forgotten that there was a version of OT5 in the Fishman letter in addition to NOTs. That version of OT5 called "Extroversion from MEST", is NO longer valid. OT5 is just NOTs.

I spent 17 years receiving very heavy criticism of, and judgment on, my actions and decisions and was put under a microscope before doing EVERY OT level. I received 100's of hours of sec-checking into every aspect of my life, including my most intimate thoughts and deeds. I was questioned at great length by "Ethics Officers", sometimes in groups calling themselves "Boards of Investigation". All this resulted in a conviction on my part that I had NEVER made a good decision, that I was TOTALLY INCAPABLE of doing so, and that I was a bad person. This experience made me avoid decisions if at all possible, always defer to my husband or a friend, ask my children's advice, do "what Ron would do", ask my auditor, do nothing until forced to act when a situation deteriorated, never disagree, etc., etc. Now I have decided to "share" OT8 instead of using the threat to do so to secure protection or other gain. I still don't know if it's the right decision.

I have NO OT8 materials in my possession. My description is from memory, but, as you will see, there is not a lot to remember. New OT8 consists of two parts; A and B. Part A is E-meter drills and drilling actions required on a C/S 53 (this is an action supposed to find and "handle" mental trauma arising from past bad auditing or life situations that will interfere with auditing). Part B consists of reading History of Man and getting very thoroughly checked out on it, and studying and solo-auditing New OT8. The description of the rundown given in the materials is not at all precise. In that respect it differs from all other actions I did in Scientology. There is no question(s) given in quotation marks. The instructions simply state that you have to look over your past auditing and take the past-life identities you have discovered you were and check them on the E-meter to see if they are true or false. You cannot look at your folders so you do the identities you remember. Some of the people initially responsible for supervising OT8 were RPF'd for giving us suggestions on what to do. Without words put in our mouths we did not know what to do. The first thing you do is the C/S 53. Then the instructions from the Case Supervisor consist of 1. Fly a rud (ie. "handle" anything your attention is on) 2. OT8.

and the instructions do not change throughout the rundown.

Here is an example of what I did in an actual session, and what I wrote because I had to write down what I did.

I took the identity "Beethoven" because I remembered having "realised" in auditing that I "was" Beethoven. I looked at the E-meter I was connected to and I thought about being Beethoven and I thought the question "True?" and looked to see if the meter reacted. It didn't. I thought the question "False?" and the meter reacted. So I had NOT actually been Beethoven. Here is what I wrote (it's in French, my native tongue) Beethoven Vrai? x ("x" means no meter reaction) Faux? LF ("LF" means Long Fall, a meter reaction) F/N (Floating Needle means the action concerning Beethoven is finished and I am happy about it) Of all the identities I checked on OT8 only one turned out to be true. I was allowed to attest that I had finished when I had a "big cognition" (ie. a realization) about death. I had had a very strong fear of death which had not resolved in all the auditing I had done. On OT8 I realised that I, the being, would never die and I was "totally blown out" as Scientologists would say. I was now OT8 and I came back home and promptly got sick.

Because of the hype OT8s are regarded as demi-gods and have to conceal the problems and inadequacies they have. I had the opportunity to study the "cases" of some OT8s and speak with others and I realised I was by no means the only OT8 with problems. Some of the problems suffered by OT8s are alcoholism, homosexuality (regarded by Scientology as a degraded, perverted activity only indulged in by individuals who are not worthy of having ANY rights in society), extra-marital affairs, voyeurism, heart attacks, strokes, criminality, and divorce.

Voila.

Ariane Jackson, Sept 1996.

-- Ariane
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The Running Program [07 Sep 1996] (courtesy of Deirdre) From: deirdre@sover.net (Deirdre)
Subject: The Running Program
Date: Sat, 07 Sep 1996 23:20:02 -0400
Organization: Knights of Xenu, Northeast Kingdom Chapter
Message-ID:
I recently posted that I didn't think the running program was widespread and that I hadn't heard of cases outside of Int. I received an email (which I was asked to post) contradicting my statement. I think some of the other statements in this email are particularly interesting and I hadn't previusly known.

Thanks Alex.

_Deirdre
Date: Sat, 7 Sep 1996 15:48:47 -0400
From: ARIANE JACKSON <106231.2751@compuserve.com>
Subject: Running Program
To: deirdre Deirdre, I am Ariane's husband, Alex, and I saw a post of yours on ars referring to the Running Program. I actually did the Running Program when I was on staff at New World Corps (NWC) in early '83. It was supposed to be being piloted by NWC. We ran in a corner of Griffith Park in Hollywood, a few miles from the complex. It was not ostensibly a punishment action and it was claimed by Hubbard to be a type of "undercut" to auditing. A large number of RPFers were doing it and they were happy to be on it instead of their usual "duties".

The "process" consisted of running around a large pole, which was made of oil drums welded together and painted red. The radius of the circle had to be at least 25ft to avoid damaging our ankles. There was an "In-charge" whose job was to keep us running. We had to run till we were too tired to run and then rest until we were rested and then run again. The I/C had to adjudicate when you were rested but it was not too difficult to show you needed some more rest. Some runners would "injure" their ankles and they would walk until they could run. It may have been run more brutally at Int, I don't know.

I saw Hana Eltringham(Whitfield) there, she was in the RPF, and Suzette Hubbard, who was in CMO was put on it because "her case had got totally snarled up on David Mayo's NOTs". She was Suzette Titmus but had marital problems. Last I heard she was Suzette White. Some ASI staff were also doing it, Richard Tinklingburg because he "had f*cked up big time on Hubbard's finances". Jonno and Leslie Epstein were in the RPF and on it. There was also an epileptic from INCOMM on it who said his epilepsy started after OT3.

I read some of the materials on it because I was being trained to be I/C. They were just unsigned messages, or maybe signed "R", I don't remember. These messages claimed that "Hubbard" (we assumed the author was Hubbard because no one else could invent "technology") had created a renaissance a long time ago in a "sector" by doing this program on the inhabitants who were at that time the equivalent of OT11 or 12 and did not use bodies. He said he did it with two assistants and they just grabbed thetans and made them go around this spot in space. He joked "We did not know about ARC then". He said it created a huge doughnut of energy in space.

Part of the "theory" he said the program was based on was that the thetan is negatively charged (this conflicts with his definition of a static but he was incapable of seeing conflicts in what he wrote) and the body is positively charged. This causes the thetan to be pulled into the body. The positive charge on the body is either caused or aggravated by the deficiency of minerals on this planet. He said these bodies were designed to last several hundred years and they do so on planets that are rich in minerals. So we had to take mega doses of minerals.

He claimed this program "handled" cases that had been totally snarled up by auditing and no longer responded to auditing. He said it "keyed out" the implants overwhelming the person, and when queried on the EP he ordered that the runners run till "they are sane".

Most of the runners were doing it fulltime, 8 am to 10 pm but some, who had staff posts, did it 5 hours a day. We filled out daily reports which went to the C/S and covered what minerals we took, how long we ran, wins, problems, etc.

Feel free to post this. We are still trying to work out how to post articles.

Alex.
----------------------------------------------------------------------- Patron Meritorious the Jody Darling way [10 Sep 1996]
From: ARIANE JACKSON <106231.2751@compuserve.com>
Subject: Patron Meritorious the Jody Darling way
Date: Tue, 10 Sep 1996 19:44:12 -0400
Message-ID: <199609101944_MC1-962-C931@compuserve.com>
X-Mail2News-Path: hil-img-6.compuserve.com

In this article I will describe in detail the experiences of my ex-husband, Albert Jaquier, in his business dealings with Jody Darling. Jody Darling is a Patron Meritorious of the "church" of Scientology, member of the "Inner Circle" of that cult, OT7, and president of Pacific Training Systems, a Scientology company located at 108 N. Brand Blvd, Suite 202, Glendale, CA 91203. Phone 818 547 3514, Fax 818 547 3522. (The information that follows is FULLY documented) Darling presented to Albert a lengthy, handwritten proposal, dated 23 July 1989, asking him to "invest" in the above company. Included was one whole page detailing his Scientology credentials and naming CofS officials who could vouch for him. At that time he was not Patron Meritorious(which requires a $250,000 payment to IAS-the International Association of Scientologists), he was just "Patron with honors"(which requires a $100,000 payment). In the proposal he promised annual profits of 18-25% on the investment, quote " Our investment options give a return on the order of 18-25%". The proposal was in French since Albert did not speak English.

Albert agreed to "invest" $200,000; $100,000 as purchase of "stock" and $100,000 as a loan at 21.6% interest (interest rate suggested by Darling). A contract was signed on 5 August 1989, and Albert made arrangements to transfer the money from Switzerland.

On 18 August 89, Darling sent a fax that starts out by asking what name to put on the "stock certificates" but then gets down to what he really wants to know--where is the MONEY. He asks when it will be ready, what bank it will be in etc. The fax header, and fax # he gives, are those of the INTERNATIONAL ASSOCIATION OF SCIENTOLOGISTS(IAS). This is very relevant because it indicates the possibility that the money, or part of it, was in fact going to IAS. It is absolutely forbidden, by Hubbard policy, to use the equipment of Scientology organizations(orgs) for ANYTHING other than "org business". It is also forbidden to transact ANY private business deals on the property of Flag Service Organization, Inc.(FSO). The ONLY reason it would be acceptable to IAS for Darling to use their office and equipment would be if they benefitted from his doing so. We shall see that they apparently did benefit. He sent another fax on August 20, 89, also from the IAS office, giving his bank account # and promising he would send the "loan documents" and "stock certificates" IN TWO WEEKS. Over 5 years later, at the time of his death, Albert had still NOT RECEIVED ANY STOCK CERTIFICATES.

Back to the chronology of events:- Darling received the $200,000 on 22 August 89 and two weeks later got around to acknowledging that fact. He did not bother to translate his fax into French, he just left that for Albert to do. In the fax he says :- "..... you are due payments each month in the following amounts:

$100,000 loan - rate 21.6% $1,800 $100,000 stock investment paying a guaranteed rate of 15% per year $1,250 Total monthly return $3,050. American law allows us to pay a maximum interest rate of 15% on loans....... There is also an additional tax complication in paying you "dividends" in the U.S. in that we would incur "double taxation" (You would be taxed on your profits within Pacific Training Systems as corporate tax, and also pay taxes through Jaquier Investments corporate tax on the monies you received) if we called your stock returns "dividends". In order to simplify these problems, I would like to pay your monthly returns in two ways: 1. A monthly check for $1,250 that we would call an interest payment on the loan. This would calculate to the acceptable 15% annual return. 2. The remaining $1,800 per month paid to you as consulting services for International Business advice. This would categorize this money as a business expense that would not be taxable to Pacific Training Systems." (end of quote) Whatta guy!! (Jaquier Investments was Albert's own company). Sinse Albert only owned 5% of Pacific Training, the "consulting services" tax evasion would save him only 5% of the tax on $1800 and would save Darling 95% of the tax.

The next development was accidentally discovered by Albert later and explained, for him, not only the use of the IAS ofice by Darling to send and receive his business faxes but also Darling's failure to repay the loan. In the IAS magazine "Impact" Iss # 28, there is a photograph of Darling being congratulated by Heber Jentzsch on JANUARY 13, 1990 for buying his Patron Meritorious!! So Darling paid IAS $150,000 to convert his Patron with honors to Patron Meritorious sometime between receiving the money from Albert and January 13,1990. In fact there is a memo handwritten by Albert to the effect that the wife of an IAS salesman confirmed that $150,000 of the money Albert gave to Darling was paid to IAS for Darling's Patron Meritorious. Albert had been told his money was "invested" in Darling's company, in "stocks" and a "loan"!! On March 12, 1990 Darling sent another fax, again from the IAS office.

Darling was supposed to pay the interest and dividends he promised monthly and on August 20, 1990 repay the $100,000 loan. When it came time to repay the loan he not only did not repay but also stopped making regular monthly repayments. After August 1990 the LEAST amount he was OVERDUE on his payments was $83,000 and his payments became increasingly more sporadic.

At the end of July 1990, Albert reminded Darling that the loan was due to be repaid in August. Darling ignored his faxes!!

On Sept 17,1990 the refusal of Darling to repay or even communicate to Albert was officially reported to the "CHURCH" OF SCIENTOLOGY; and specifically to the Master-at-Arms (who is responsible for ensuring the ethical behaviour of members)of Flag Service Organization, Inc and the WORLD INSTITUTE OF SCIENTOLOGY ENTERPRISES ( the part of the "church" of Scientology responsible for, and receiving a percentage from, businesses run by Scientologists). There is no record of a reply or any action being taken. It should be understood that it is absolutely forbidden for a Scientologist to take ANY legal action against another Scientologist. Behaviour such as Darling's contempt for his financial obligations MUST be corrected only by officials of the "church" of Scientology.

In November 1990 Albert again reported the situation to the C of S and added that he, himself, had no money and that Darling was enjoying himself on the Scientology cruise ship the "Freewinds". Darling was overdue on his payments by $83,000. Albert continued to report the situation, together with his deteriorating financial condition and the deteriorating state of his health, but there is no record of the C of S doing anything. They apparently ignored the requests of Albert, gave Darling the best of services, and, of course, accepted his money.

In May 1991, Darling pulled another one of his "creative" business practices. On May 18, 1991 he sent Albert a copy of a "Letter of Intent" signed by Darling and someone called John Hetherington, "Chairman of the Board". This letter appears to describe a very attractive agreement to purchase 85% of Pacific Training Systems but does not state who will be the purchaser and does not state what "Board" Hetherington is "chairman of". On June 14 1991 Darling sends Albert a document to sign which is not only difficult to decipher but includes lies. He begins by describing the offer to purchase 85% of the stock of Pacific Training Systems at $80 per share. He goes on to say:- "1. Do you wish to accept this offer and sell your stock at the $80 per share price? You currently own 3490 shares of stock. You originally purchased your stock for $51.35 per share. This acceptance would give you an approximate 55.8% return on the stock value over the time you have held it. All dividends and interest you are currently owed by the company will be paid in addition to this amount. This means that if you sold all of your stock now you would receive $279,200 upon closing of the transaction....... Please indicate your answer to this by signing below." (end of quote) Albert signed. However, if we check the numbers we find that 3490 shares at $51.35 comes to $179,211 but Albert ORIGINALLY purchased only $100,000 worth of stock. What happened? A fax from Darling four days later, on June 18, clarifies the situation somewhat. He says:- "A couple of points as regards the numbers in the letter: 1. I have transferred your original LOAN to the company of $100,000 into stock so that you can be paid out of the escrow targeted to be completed by the end of this week. The remaining balance on the loan was $79,269,.......This money was translated into stock at the $80 per share price that the buyer is paying. 2. The original stock you purchased for $100,000 is now worth $200,000." (end of quote) There are several questionable points here:- A) There is absolutely nothing signed by Albert authorizing the transfer of the loan to stock!! B) Why was it necessary to "transfer" the loan? Darling was selling $3.4million of stock and should have been able to easily repay $79,000!! C) NO stock was purchased at $51.35 per share. 990 shares were ILLEGALLY "sold" to Albert, without his consent, by Darling to take care of the $79,269 still owed on the $100,000 he had borrowed from Albert and could not repay. The other 2500 shares were purchased for $100,000 ($40 per share). $51.35 is a sloppy average and is false.

Darling later claimed the June 14 document constituted a "contract" which transferred Albert's loan into stock!!! He immediately thereafter began referring to Albert as an "investor" not a creditor. Between November 1990 and February 1992 Darling paid a grand total of $5,250.

In September and December 1991 Albert continued to report Darling to the "church" of Scientology and was apparently ignored. In December 1991 Darling sent Albert a list of the "minimum" payments he would be sending. These were monthly payments beginning at $2,000 in January 1992 and increasing each month to reach $20,000 by August 1992 and continue at $20,000 a month until "the full amount of stock" was repurchased from Albert. In fact Darling paid nothing in January 1992, and paid $15,500 of the $58,000 he had promised by August 1992. He made ONE more payment in Sept 1992 of $3,000 and that was the very last payment Albert ever received. After that Darling did not even try to pay.

Now we will see all that Albert tried to do for the next two years to recover his hard-earned money; and his money was very hard-earned. He had to stop school and go work when he was 14years old. He became successful by working his way up from laborer at an automobile junkyard to owning that business and turning it into a multi million dollar automobile business. He was 45 when he got involved in Scientology in 1980 and he had worked very hard for all his working life.

I do not have all the faxes Albert sent to Darling and the "church" of Scientology and I have no record of all the phone calls he made. A friend of Albert's wrote a long letter in August 1992 complaining about the "transfer" of the loan to stock and the failure of Darling to make any decent payments. Albert's assistant continued to report Darling to the "church" of Scientology in October, in December (when she reported that Albert was in intensive care), and in January 93. Also in January 1993 the "church" of Scientology made a response 16 months after the situation had been reported. WISE (World Institute of Scientology Enterprises) wrote to say that Darling was being investigated at Flag in Clearwater, and being pressured to come clean and get his act together. Meanwhile Albert was recovering from a massive stroke which had put him in a coma for two weeks. Albert was OT 7 which Scientology promises puts a person at "cause over life". After his stroke and until his death Albert was PHYSICALLY INCAPABLE OF WORKING.

On February 26 1993 Darling actually deigned to write (to Albert's assistant). One may think that he had been "straightened out" by Flag until one reads the letter. He says:- ".......judging from some of the statements in your letter to me, and the [report] I received at Flag over Christmas, I think it is important that we clarify a few points regarding Albert's investment" (end of quote).

He then proceeds, in a patronizing manner, to relate the terms of the original agreement and justify his failure to repay. He says:- "What happened shortly after that ["that" refers to Albert's giving him $200,000] seems to be a common story among Scientologists, and American business in general. Our company's $3 million in business was put on "hold" by a change in procedure in the State of California, and at the same time all of the receivables financing we had dried up. On top of this, several of the people who owed money to myself or Pacific Training began having financial problems and did not pay us promptly. I know this same situation occurred on Albert's lines, and not just with Pacific Training. These factors severely crippled the company financially and operationally, and despite an extreme amount of work (and several commitments to the company from others) we were not in the position to execute Albert's request for repayment and purchase of his stock per the original agreement..... Despite these setbacks, we have continued to stay in business, have weathered the storm, and have brought the company back from the brink of bankruptcy...." (end of quote). It should be noted that the time period he refers to (shortly after Albert gave him the money) is THE SAME TIME PERIOD WHEN HE GAVE $150,000 TO IAS!! When he describes how hard he has worked , and how bad the state of his company, it is difficult to see how he could have afforded the time, and money, for the extended cruise on the ship or all the time he spent at Clearwater. However, his admission that his story is common among Scientologists is very true.

He also refers to the "transfer" of Albert's loan to stock by saying :- ".....Albert was sent documentation to convert the remainder of the loan to stock in May 1991...." (end of quote). This is blatantly false as I have already shown. He also gives all the amounts he will pay in the forthcoming months; which amounts he never even tried to pay.

In March 1993 Albert had to mortgage his home for money to live on! He continued to report the situation to the "church" of Scientology, sometimes several times a month, he demonstrated the urgency of the situation and he described his serious financial and health problems. He apparently was ignored.

In August 1993, having received no help from the "church" of Scientology, Albert went to the TOP, the ultimate, highest authority alive in Scientology, CHAIRMAN OF THE BOARD, RELIGIOUS TECHNOLOGY CENTER, COMMANDER DAVID MISCAVIGE!!!!! Albert's assistant, Louise Cournoyer, wrote the letter but incuded a translation of a letter in which Albert described 6 LOANS he had made to Scientologists, Darling included, totalling $650,000 which were grossly delinquent. Louise also mentioned Albert's serious health problems despite being OT 7, the financial hardship generated by the delinquent debts, and the fact Albert had reported the situation numerous times to C of S officials and nothing had been done.

Since Religious Technology Center (RTC) is responsible for the proper application of Scientology, we should expect Commander Miscavige to take some firm action when confronted by such obvious outnesses. Flag (which is claimed to render only "perfect" application of Scientology) has given someone OT 7 (which is supposed to handle all illness and make the person "cause over life") and he has a stroke and was in a coma. Scientologists who have the incredibly powerful, totally workable, 100% effective business and ethics "technologies" of Scientology do not keep their promises and pay back their debts. They are delinquent to the tune of $650,000. These situations are reported to Flag officials and WISE officials whose job is to resolve the situation and these officials do nothing.

On Sept 7 1993 COMMANDER DAVID MISCAVIGE, CHAIRMAN OF THE BOARD, RELIGIOUS TECHNOLOGY CENTER wrote back to Louise and said:- "Thank you for your letter concerning Mr. Albert Jacquier(sic) and the sour investments which are not resolving.

The policy concerning such disputes between Scientologists is to hold a Civil Hearing. You can contact Chief Public MAA FSO if you would like to get one called for Mr. Jacquier.

I wish you the best in getting this resolved.

Love, [signed "David"] David Miscavige Chairman of the Board Religious[sic] Technology[sic] Center" (end of quote)

To use the generality "sour investments" when referring to the refusal to repay loans and, in some cases, the fraud used to secure the loans that were described in Albert/Louise's letter is missing the point, to say the least. He just ignores the subject of Albert's illness, maybe he does not see anything wrong with being promised good health from auditing, paying hundreds of thousands of dollars to be OT 7 and then having a stroke and going in a coma. By the way, according to Hubbard "scriptures" the typist's misspelling of Albert's name means he/she cannot duplicate correctly and is, to that degree, a "degraded being".

On Sept 8 1993 Albert wrote to all his debtors, including Darling, explaining the very bad state of his finances and the very serious condition of his health. He said his life depended on whether or not they kept their promises and that turned out to be very true. They did not keep their promises and the stress, bankruptcy, poverty, lack of money for medical care, depression, sense of betrayal, indoctrination he received that auditing would cure him all added up to his dying the following year at the age of 59!

Something interesting mentioned in this letter is that he needs to do the "new OT 5" but he could not afford it. He had already done OT 5 TWICE. Normally each level is done only once but a tactic of the cult to explain the failure of Scientology to provide the promised benefits is to "discover" something wrong with a level the person has done and order him to redo that level. What is "discovered" wrong can be peculiar to that individual or it can apply to everyone who has done that level. The reason Albert was ordered to do OT 5 three times was becaue the version he received the first time had supposedly been deliberately altered by David Mayo, Hubbard's right hand man who turned out to be, according to Hubbard, sent by enemies to destroy Scientology. (Hubbard claimed in 1951 he had a "science" that could be used to evaluate an individual's whole character including their honesty, but he worked with Mayo for years and entrusted him with the technology Hubbard claimed was the ONLY hope for Mankind before he "discovered" the "truth" about David Mayo).

After Albert had done OT 5 the second time and continued up to OT 7, it was "discovered" that the OT 5 he had done was "incomplete" because "someone" had removed parts of what Hubbard had written. So now there was a third OT 5 which was hyped up as containing ALL the technology developed by Hubbard and which resolved the problems of all the individuals who were OT 7 and OT 8 and had serious health and other difficulties. Of course each time a level is redone it also has to be paid for AGAIN!

On the subject of the "technology" and Hubbard's responsibility for its purity the cult asks its members to be gullible beyond belief. According to the cult's story Hubbard retired from all management activity of Scientology in 1966 to devote himself to "research" of the "technology". In a tape in Sept 1967 he claimed to have done a "century" of research between Jan 1963 and Sept 1967 and that the whole subject of OT was "wrapped up". If we assume that he continued at the same rate-- after all his job was research, and he claimed he was not involved in management, so what else did he have to do--then between Jan 63 and Jan 86 when he died he must have done around 500 YEARS of research. During this 500 years he was unable to devise a system that would ensure that what the public were receiving, and paying up to $1,000 an hour for, was what he had developed. He could not have someone drive to L.A. (a few hours) and get copies of the OT 5 they were delivering and check it. Instead, the C of S was selling bad "technology" for about 12 years, from 1979 to 1991. When he died he left a mess and it took RTC 5 years to locate all his notes on OT 5!! That is the C of S explanation for the absence of the promised results.

Back to Darling, and the next development looks promising. On Nov 1 1993 WISE announced that Darling was to receive a Committee of Evidence (CommEv), a very severe form of "justice action". His fraud and delinquency on his debts to Albert were not however mentioned in the announcement which referred to 3 other Scientologists he had similarly defrauded.

There were 19 charges including:- EMBEZZLEMENT and OBTAINING LOANS OR MONEY UNDER FALSE PRETENSES. More than 3 years after Albert reported Darling to the C of S the "swift" justice of Scientology has him in its hands. The announcement orders the CommEv to be completed within 7 days. The CommEv was, however, still not done in April 1994.

Albert continued to report Darling to the C of S, Darling was by this time also OT 7. He also wrote to Darling who refused to answer. On nov 30 1993 Albert wrote to Darling:- "If you don't pay me back I will ask personally that your Patron Meritorious Membership is reimboursed to me because this cycle ( transaction) passed through IAS... ....If in ten days after reception of this letter nothing has been done, I will begin the procedure with IAS..." (end of quote). On Dec 22 1993 Albert reported the situation to the Director of IAS Administrations. He continued to write to Darling--no reply-- and continued to write to the C of S asking for help urgently--apparently no reply. He received a reply from IAS on Jan 27 1994 that thanked him for his letter which was being forwarded to the appropriate section. Albert replied that, since nothing was being done, he was writing to the Executive Director International (head of Church of Scientology International) once more.

On Jan 29 1994 Albert wrote to IAS and demanded that they refund the Patron Meritorious donations of Darling (and 2 other Patrons Meritorious who were grossly delinquent on large debts to Albert) without delay. This was not a step Albert took lightly because just to ASK the C of S to refund money is regarded as "suppressive" and to be dealt with by expulsion and becoming "Fair Game".



Albert continued to report the situation to C of S frequently and on February 13 1994 the Deputy Chaplain for Courts FSO wrote. The content of the letter, however, seems more designed to show how willing he is to help than to do anything effective. One of the cc's addressed in the letter was the official at FSO in charge of "Image".

Albert was really desperate. He wrote to MONSIEUR GUILLAUME LESEVRE, EXECUTIVE DIRECTOR INTERNATIONAL asking that IAS refund the money that Darling had fraudulently obtained from Albert to give to them. He was also sending daily faxes to Darling which were,as usual, ignored. On Feb 25 1994 he informed the IAS and the Deputy Chaplain for Courts that he, Albert, was being sued because he had been unable to pay one of his creditors.

After 7 months of being ignored by Darling, on March 1 1994 Albert received a fax from Robert Eakin, obviously a lackey of Darling's, which stated:- "Mr Jaquier Quit being a victim.You will be paid when there is money available to pay you. Right now all monies are invested towards production that will result in funds to pay you-- no matter how much time and paper you waste this way it will not result in getting paid any earlier. Your entheta comm (Scientologese meaning communication that is upsetting, full of lies etc.) is not OK and you have been deadfiled (Scientologese meaning any communication received from Albert would be immediately filed away, not shown to anyone and not answered. It is from a policy used by Scientology orgs to deal with critical mail they receive).....I do not pass this comm (communication) on to Jody nor do I give him your repetitious.......(illegible)." (end of quote) This demonstrates that Darling was taking advantage of the fact that Albert could not take legal action against him.

On March 2 1994 the Deputy Chaplain for Courts wrote admitting that Darling's loan had been arranged by an IAS salesman named Hans Peter Tschupp.

Eakin also wrote a long letter to the Deputy Chaplain for Courts on March 3 1994. He included with the letter a copy of the 14 June 1991 "contract" as "evidence" that Albert had "transferred" his loan to stock. He refers to the "consulting fee" tax evasion scheme suggested by Darling and blames it on Albert. He goes on at length to give all the supposed reasons why Darling does NOT have to pay Albert and calls Albert a liar.

Also on March 3 1994 Albert filed a claim against Darling with the Chaplain's Court asking for the $304,563 Darling owed him. On March 9 1994 Albert wrote that he had lost around $350,000 because a mortgage he could not pay had been foreclosed.

On March 15 1994 Albert wrote to the C of S complaining that nothing was being done and that he was "practically ruined". He continued to write and was by this time PLEADING FOR HELP!! On April 3 1994 the Deputy Chaplain for Courts sent him copies of "summonses to appear" for Chaplain's Court actions. When Darling's lackey, Eakin, received the summons he faxed the Deputy Chaplain and politely told him the matter was being dealt with in LA and the Deputy Chaplain did not need to concern himself. He also indicated:- "You see, I really am saving you some unnecessary traffic on this stuff. You're welcome." (end of quote).

It took the Deputy Chaplain 6 days to decide what to do but he did the right thing. He wrote back firmly that he could not withdraw his services to Mr. Jaquier and he was awaiting a written response from Darling and compliance to his Court Order.

The Court Order was headed "Summons-Notice to appear", named Albert as Plaintiff and Darling as Defendant, and attempted to appear official. It stated, in part:- "You are hereby notified that you are required to appear in person or attorney at the Church of Scientology Flag Service Organization: Chaplain's Court Sub-Unit: [address] On 5 May 1994, 2:30 PM for a pre-trial conference in this case. The case will not be tried at that time. You must appear in person or by attorney, in order to avoid a default judgment, the defendant (s) must appear in court on the date specified, in person or by attorney......The purpose of this hearing is to record your appearance, to enable determination of the nature of the case and to set the trial date......" (end of quote) It is undated.

Meanwhile Albert wrote to Darling on April 7 1994 asking him to transfer the credit from Jaquier Investments, which was bankrupt, to the name of Albert Jaquier. He also requested that the share certificates be sent by return mail. He reiterated that the June 14 1991 "contract" was null and void. The next day he wrote to the President of WISE asking him to help. Two weeks later, after 8 months of ignoring Albert, DARLING SENT A FAX!! The fax was on Pacific Training Systems letterhead but the fax header was "from Commonwealth Manuf. Corp".He said he had to clarify a few points in Albert's fax of April 7. He asked, among other things:- "Are you requesting a certificate for only the $100,000 worth of shares Jaquier Investments purchased from Pacific in the 1989 contract, or are you requesting the certificate include all the shares- including those converted to stock in the 1991 contract." (end of quote). Albert told him the 1991 "contract" was not valid. Darling sent another fax 3 days later, positively dripping with sarcasm. He repeats the questions from his earlier fax and then rephrases them in simplified language to indicate he thought Albert had not been able to understand the earlier fax. Albert reiterated what it WAS obvious he, Darling, had not understood for several years. That was the very last communication Albert received from Darling. It should be noted that Albert NEVER received a single report on the performance of his shares or any financial report on Pacific Training despite the fact he was a stockholder.

That brings us to May 1 1994 when Albert wrote to Hans Peter Tschupp, one of the IAS salesmen (salesmen is a misnomer because nothing is given for the money they collect, they use threats that Scientology will be destroyed or damaged if the mark does not pay -- but, like salesman, they receive a commission on what they collect). In the letter Albert threatens legal action against all his debtors, including Darling, the IAS, and Tschupp as an instigator of the fraud.

On May 5 1994, the date on which Darling had been "Summoned to appear" and told if he did not appear he would lose the judgment by default, there is a sad entry in Albert's diary. It states " No Jody----no Chaplain Court". There is no record of a default judgment either. Two days later he made another entry mentioning he was sad, he had reached the "worst depths of misery" and ended by writing "you will miss me--I am truly finished". On May 11 1994 he tried again to communicate to the "church" of Scientology the seriousness of his situation. He said he was returning to Switzerland having lost everything, his children, friends, marriage, money, health and had no future. His last desire was to die in peace. On May 19 1994 he went to Switzerland.
In Switzerland he seemed to recover somewhat, renew his strength and return to try once more. It turned out to be his very last attempt, like all the rest it was unsuccessful and, in fact, he never saw Switzerland again. He returned in June 1994 and for the next few months did all he could, but he no longer had the strength or will to fight. He was broken and depressed. He was borrowing money from me and, after my experiences in Scientology, I had about as much money as he had.

He continued to write, somewhat dejectedly, to Darling and to C of S and reiterate the seriousness of his situation. To no avail. The Chaplain's action appears to have been dropped. Darling continued to ignore him. At the end of July 1994 he wrote to all the C of S officials involved and indicated to them he thought Darling could be jailed for fraud and that IAS officials had assisted Darling. That got a response. The Deputy Chaplain wrote saying that Darling was going to get another CommEv, this time at Flag (the previous CommEv had been done in LA by WISE). A copy of this letter was addressed to the Office of Special Affairs (OSA) which is the part of the C of S which deals with legal threats, enemies of the cult, potentially embarrassing situations, etc. I have no record of any further written communication to Albert form the C of S. He makes no mention in his diary of anything in writing received after that. He had some meetings with C of S officials and he continued to demand that they refund the money that had been fraudulently obtained from him by Darling and paid to them. He was also receiving auditing at Flag and in many cases would become sick, or sicker, afterwards.

In October 1994 he received a threat of foreclosure from his bank if he did not pay the past due amounts for the mortgage. On October 26 1994 he officially demanded a refund of the $93,000 he, himself, had paid directly to IAS for him and me to be patrons and our son to be a "sponsor". He knew he was risking being declared a Suppressive Person. I have no record and he makes no mention of any CommEv or ANY further action being taken against Darling by the cult. It should be noted that Darling stopped paying Albert long before the "church" of Scientology even began pretending to take action and that despite everything Albert did for FOUR YEARS, the "church" of Scientology did NOT MAKE DARLING GIVE ALBERT ONE PENNY. That is the result of the application of Scientology business and ethics "technology" by the organizations and individuals (Flag, WISE, Miscavige, Lesevre) who claim to apply the "technology" fully and standardly.

As Albert continued to ask for his refund C of S officials stopped even pretending to assist him. At the beginning of November 1994 he wrote in his diary "I am in danger". His health continued to deteriorate and he felt he would not survive to the end of the year. He died on December 11 1994, alone, impoverished, in misery, betrayed, disillusioned, depressed and less than 60 years old. Scientology had promised him freedom, health, happiness, success, immortality, power and longevity. In the hope of achieving these, he had given till he had no more to give.

Darling continues to refuse to repay and appears to be continuing to do what he does best; he is listed as Patron Meritorious by IAS. The "church" of Scientology was implicated in, and benefitted from, the original fraud. They protected someone they charged with fraud and embezzlement and, apparently, never acqitted. They refused to allow Darling to be dealt with by real civil and criminal justice and played games of pretend while someone died before their eyes. So, if you ever wonder what is meant by "Patron Meritorious, Church of Scientology" and how it is achieved, this is how!



Ariane Jackson, Geneva, Switzerland. Aug 1996.
-------------------------------------------------------------------- DIARY OF A DYING SCIENTOLOGIST OT7 [11 Sep 1996] Date: Wed, 11 Sep 1996 23:31:00 -0400
From: ARIANE JACKSON <106231.2751@compuserve.com>
Subject: DIARY OF A DYING SCIENTOLOGIST OT7
Message-ID: <199609112331_MC1-979-F0AE@compuserve.com>


This article contains excerpts from the diary of my ex-husband, ALBERT JAQUIER. These entries are from 1994, the last year of his life. He died on Dec 11, 1994. He was 59 years old when he wrote these entries. He had completed OT7, which promises to make a person "Cause over life", he had been in the Scientology cult for 14 years, and had given his fortune of several million dollars. He had a heart condition, was physically incapable of working, and had had a stroke at the end of 1992. Shortly before his death he told me he did not think he would live very long and made me promise I would make his experiences publicly known so that others would not have to suffer in the same way. The original entries are in French, which I have translated. My explanations of his shorthand, and identification of the names involved, are in parentheses. While reading this it should be borne in mind that the picture here is of a man who had been pushed way beyond the limits of what anyone should be asked to suffer. It would be a great disservice to his memory if I did not indicate that, prior to losing his health, Albert had worked, and he routinely worked 16 and 18 hour days, seven days a week. That was how he had gotten from being a junkyard laborer to a self-made millionaire pre-Scientology. If he had been physically capable of working he would have tried to recover from or prevent his financial ruin. He was a warm-hearted and generous man, the proof is he LOANED over $1,000,000 to 11 Scientologists, without collateral, on the recommendations of other Scientologists and, at the time of his death, only one of them had repaid him.

The Scientologists who did not repay Albert, and the amounts he calculated they owed as of May 1994, are as follows:- Amount owed as of May '94 CHRISTIAN BOSIGER OT8 $ 33,940 JODY DARLING OT7,PATRON MERITORIOUS $304,564 CHRISTIAN DELALEZE, SEA ORG MEMBER $ 12,120 ? LABRE, CLEAR $ 9,131 ? PESCE $ 731 ? PICHON, CLEAR $ 41,587 CLAUDE-ANDRE QUENNOZ, CLEAR $ 32,859 RENALD RACINE, ON OT7 $ 8,891 HANS-KASPAR RHYNER, OT5, PATRON MERITORIOUS $344,028 GIGI TROGLIO, OT7 $ 46,062 (Here are his diary entries). Dec 27, 1993, The evening of the 25th,Party organised by Michele (daughter of Albert by his 1st wife) Ariane (me) and Alex (my husband), Cyril (Albert's son by his second marriage, a Scientologist who STOLE almost all of the estate of Albert after his death) and Alex(another Alex, a friend of Cyril). Jacinthe (former girlfriend of Albert) and Michele. Michael (Albert's and my son) and Albert. Very good evening.

Dec 31, No money, admin problems Jan 2, 1994 Went to flea market with Michele and Cyril. Bought clothes for Michael.

Jan 11 Phoned Baer (Edwin Baer, a delinquent debtor, Scientologist, owing Albert $150,000 + interest who eventually paid but refused to pay the $40,000 interest) Ruth (Baer's wife) answered, long communication not very nice. I want to ask my refund from IAS. Brought the Jeep to the dealer to try to trade it for something with lower payments.

Jan 13, I am very irritable. My body and joints are very painful.

Jan 14 Long talk with Cyril, no explanation and no respect. Took possession of my new car a Chevrolet Lumina.

Jan 19, KR (Knowledge Report.Scientologists are ordered to write reports on ALL "outnesses" they observe in other Scientologists and send these reports to the "Ethics Section") on Jody Darling (another delinquent debtor, Scientologist, who did not repay over $300,000), still no news. Still the same money problems.

Jan 23, Wrote to all my debtors.

Jan 25 Did not sleep.

Jan 27 Did not sleep. Went to see Andy (Andy Stilhard, staff member at Flag Service Organization, Inc.) about debtors.

Jan 28 Sick.

Jan 29 Sick, in bed. Passing blood Jan 30 Sick. Passing blood Jan 31 Sick. Passing blood.

Feb 1 Sick. Passing blood. Wrote to IAS for refunds of Patron Meritorious ( a "status" achieved by paying $250,000 to the International Association of Scientologists) of Jody Darling, Hans-Kaspar Rhyner ( another delinquent debtor, Scientologist, who did not repay over $300,000) and Edwin Baer.

Feb 2 Sick. Passing blood.

Feb 3 Sick. Passing blood Feb 4 Sick. Passing blood Feb 5 Sick. Passing blood.

Feb 8 KR on Hans-Kaspar Rhyner.

Jan 14 Slept all afternoon, no courage. No news from IAS or from Baer, just from Rhyner.

Jan 16 Fax to Jody. Problems with money.

Jan 17 Communication with IAS no result. What can I do.

Jan 18 Fax from Edwin, he has no money. Fax Jody KR. Fax IAS.

Jan 20 Sat evening, sad, I have no goal, unhappy.

Jan 25 Discussion with Chaplain (the staff member at Flag who is supposed to resolve conflicts between Scientologists because it is forbidden for a Scientologist to take a lawyer against another Scientologist) the cycle (Scientologese for action) does not go. I am bored, alone, sad.

Jan 26 Deep depression. Can't take any more.

Jan 27 Interview with Jeanne D'Arc ( staff at Flag).

Mar 1 Fax to Chaplain. Serious problems with Jones St (a property he owned). Decided to let it be repossessed.

Mar 12 Went to bed early very tired.

Mar 14 Went to notary to sign for repossession of Jones St. Called Chaplain-- busy, called E/O ("Ethics Officer", staff who is supposed to ensure that Scientologists are "ethical" as defined by Hubbard)-- busy. Sad, no more courage, headache.

Mar 15 Letter to Chaplain, to IAS, to MAA (Master-at-Arms, same as E/O), to C/S (Case Supervisor, staff responsible for ordering what type of "auditing" is to be done on someone). Totally depressed.

Mar 16 Am very anxious regarding money, visa (immigration visa, he was Swiss), health.

Mar 17 Cannot sleep, anxious. Listening to Ron's (L. Ron Hubbard) tapes to try and get out of this hell.

Mar 20 In bed almost all day tired, problems.

Mar 21 In bed almost all day, headache.

Mar 22 Only interest of Cyril is to change cars, does not care about the future, just the present. He is selfish and egotistical. I argue with him, he is very negative. Called his mother, I want him to return to Switzerland.

Mar 23 Chaplain regarding Baer's fax.

Mar 25 Sad, depressed, crying. Cyril is in Key West with my car.

Mar 26 Deep depression.

Mar 27 Depression, depression, death, I do not know what the future will be. This month I lost Jones St, no money, Cyril not working.

Mar 28 Fax to Baer and to Chaplain--no answer.

Apr 4 Cyril has a new car.

Apr 9 Fight with Cyril.

Apr 14 Low morale, stuck.

Apr 16 Depression, no money.

Apr 18 Letter from Renald (Renald Racine, delinquent Scientology debtor who did not pay $6,000), disgusting, saddens me. Is he crazy? Took it to Cosima (an E/O at Flag). Angry about IAS. Criticised by IAS staff who told me it was not OK for me to ask for a refund.

Apr 19 Depression. Spoke to Cyril, everything is falling apart. I am sad and very disappointed.

Apr 20 All day in bed, depression, no product, a hell, strange story.

Apr 23 Fax from Darling, 1.1 (1.1 is a Scientology description of the emotional level of a person, 1.1 is "covertly hostile", a low level meaning the person hates you but hides it).

Apr 30 Very tired, very tired.

May 2 Ariane paid $650 for Michael's school.

May 3 Michael is sick. I am sad, no money. Ariane brought milk and fruit for Michael, thankyou. Christian Boesiger (yet another delinquent Scientology debtor who did not repay over $33,000) no news. This chaplain cycle is punishing me.

May 4 Chaplain Court (Scientology "court action" supposed to resolve conflicts between Scientologists). Rhyner offered $200,000--no interest, so I lose the interest??

May 5 No Jody, no Chaplain Court.

May 6 Chaplain cycle very bad, they not only do not pay but they want me to lose money. I am disgusted with all that. Edwin Baer cannot come and is represented by Hans-Peter Tschupp. I am totally alone.

May 7 Bulimia of misery.

May 8 Sad.

May 13 Chaplain with Baer represented by Tschupp. No assistance.

May 16 Appointment with Alain Kartuzinsky (a Senior Case Supervisor at Flag).

May 19 Going to Switzerland Jun 20 Returned from Switzerland, low morale, no future, no goal.

Jun 30 Ariane gave me $275 for Michael's school.

Jul 1 Low morale. Slept.

Jul 2 Fax from Rhyner, entheta (Scientologese meaning ugly, hostile), does not pay, low morale, slept.

Jul 3 Low morale, slept.

Jul 4 Low morale, no goal.

Jul 7 I am very sad, Cyril moved out, he does not work, is lying, does not get up in the morning, he is not OK.

Jul 8 I am sad.

Jul 12 Sent faxes to Baer, Hans-Kaspar Rhyner, Hans-Peter Tschupp (he was involved in arranging the "loans" Albert was persuaded to make), and Jody Darling.

Jul 14 Chaplain for finance. Situation deteriorates between Cyril and me, lots of unpaid bills, I am angry.

Jul 15 At the Fort Harrison (name of the building that houses part of Flag--the FH), saw Kathy who wants to send me on the Freewinds (Scientology cruise ship) for an OT Debug (action supposed to resolve problems an "OT" has).

Jul 16 Fight with Cyril.

Jul 17 Suicidal, sick, no courage.

Jul 19 Phoned OSA about the loan cycle--nothing.

Jul 22 Cyril does nothing. Saw Chaplain and Director of IAS, got angry, ARCX (ARC broken meaning very upset).

Jul 28 KR on Hans-Kaspar Rhyner. No money. Ariane brought food, thankyou.

Jul 30 Prepared folder for a Comm-Ev (Committee of Evidence, a kind of trial without jury) for Baer, Jody Darling and Hans-Kaspar Rhyner.

Jul 31 Sad, no goal. Received a check from Ariane for $275 for Michael's school.

Aug 4 Saw Alain (Kartuzinsky), Ingrid (the "host" at Flag to whom public Scientologists can go and voice their concerns), Sergio (Chaplain), E/O, for this money cycle, a lot of charge (charge is Scientologese for mental trauma). I am tired, headache, toothache, sad.

Aug 5 Saw Alain, LRH Host,E/O, Sergio, big discussion regarding money cycle. 48 hours for Darling, Rhyner and Baer to come to Flag, not real.

Aug 6 Toothache, very painful, took aspirin (Scientologists are not supposed to take drugs, even aspirin), no courage.

Aug 7 Toothache, aspirin, my health is getting worse.

Aug 8 Fax from Rhyner--nothing. Toothache. Slept almost all day.

Aug 9 No money, sad, tired.

Aug 10 Slept, was very tired.

Aug 12 Alone, sad.

Aug 13 Alone, sad.

Aug 15 Cyril got up at 1pm.

Aug 17 I am very nervous, it's difficult for me to confront, sad, tired, sick, toothache, aspirin.

Aug 18 Saw Jeanne D'Arc and Alain.

Aug 19 Sad.

Aug 20 Sad.

Aug 22 Fell asleep at Fort Harrison, saw Jeanne D'Arc.

Aug 25 At Fort Harrison to get auditing.

Aug 26 At FH for auditing, money problems with reg ("registrar"--a salesman selling auditing).

Aug 27 Auditing.

Aug 28 Auditing.

Aug 29 I remain sad in spite of auditing, very, very tired.

Aug 30 Sad, crying, tired, the body is suffering, I am scared of Ethics. I am in bad shape physically. Cyril does not produce, selfish, interested only in music, films, computer, car.

Aug 31 I am suffering, tired, no auditing. I protest to Jeanne D'Arc, no money.

Sep 1 Ariane brought $275 for Michael's school, auditing.

Sep 2 Auditing.

Sep 3 Auditing, not fun.

Sep 4 Very big fight with Cyril, he is lying, cheating, he hates his little brother, his sister, his friends and probably his dad. An hour and a half of auditing for that today and I am sad, is he my son?

Sep 5 Cyril called his mother to return to Switzerland, yes.

Sep 6 Auditing.

Sep 11 Auditing, hard, pain in joints. Chaplain cycle Rhyner--nothing.

Sep12 Tired, sad, pain, depression.

Sep13 Jeanne D'Arc came to my house to do a "Nerve Assist" (Scientology action consisting of stroking the person's torso and limbs, following the routes of the major nerves), later had a session (auditing), hard, tired.

Sep 14 Four hours of session, hard, no wins, by-passed-charge (mental trauma that has been stirred-up but not relieved), what a mess. In the evening nerve assist from Jeanne D'Arc, cried.

Sep 15 Jeanne D'Arc nerve assist, no auditing, sick, sad, tired.

Sep 16 Auditing, hard, long, sad, disappointed.

Sep 19 Auditing, hard, tired.

Sep 21 I am angry, nothing is happening on the finances.

Sep 23 A lot of sadness, a lot of problems.

Sep 24 I cry, sad, nothing to eat, fridge empty, Ariane brought $60 of food.

Sep 25 I write my O/Ws (overts and withholds. An overt is a BAD action or omission and good and bad are defined by Hubbard. A withhold is anything the person is withholding because he fears the consequences of its being divulged. It can be an overt, or just something embarassing. A common Scientology action is to "write O/Ws", IN FULL DETAIL, and give them to the Ethics Officer and Case Supervisor, who take appropriate actions).

Sep 26 Continue to write O/Ws, strange, very tired.

Sep 27 Write O/Ws.

Sep 28 Write O/Ws, I am very sad.

Oct 2 Ariane and Alex helped me to clean San Salvador (a house he had to sell because he could not pay the mortgage. Cyril refused to help him clean it up).

Oct 7 Phone with Ruth Baer, she hung up on me.

Oct 8 Auditing.

Oct 9 Cleaned San Salvador with Alex and Ariane, a lot of work.

Oct 10 Auditing.

Oct 11 Sad, do not feel good, shitty cycle, not fun. FH for 5 hours review, $3,600 (meaning he paid $3,600 for 5 hours auditing). Long communication with Jeanne D'Arc, this cycle is bothering me.

Oct 14 Could not sleep, no auditing, sad, depression, sick.

Oct 15 Auditing, long.

Oct 16 In morning, auditing, long, afternoon FH, no more hours (his 5 hours are all used up).

Oct 19 Very tired, sick, pain to the tips of my fingers.

Oct 20 Concerning Ariane, I will not do what I have done to her, I will handle with a lot of ARC (Affinity, Reality and Communication. When Albert and I divorced I was told by the Ethics Officer to give Albert custody of Michael. Later Albert became more and more convinced that I was bad for Michael and refused to allow me ANY contact with Michael for a period of 7 months. When I called, Albert had someone else tell me on the phone that I had to get permission from the Ethics Officer to see my son. This is the practice called "disconnection" advocated by Scientology. My son was THREE years old at the time).

Oct 21 I am tired and sick.

Sep22 FH to see Jeanne D'Arc, afternoon faxes to Jody, Rhyner, Baer, Pichon (another delinquent Scientology debtor who did not repay over $41,000).

Oct 25 Interview with Jeanne D'Arc, I was not nice with her, she was sad. Have decided to ask for a refund from IAS.

Oct 27 Contacted Alain and Jeanne D'Arc to ask for a refund from IAS.

Oct 28 Contacted Ginger and Jeanne D'Arc to ask for my refund from IAS.

Oct 31 D of P (an interview by the Director of Processing [Processing is auditing], not happy, without purpose, useless.

Nov 3 All this week sad, feverish, pain, depression.

Nov 5 Sick, sad.

Nov 6 Fax from Rhyner who is very angry with me. I cannot take any more, I screamed at Jeanne D'Arc and Marcus (E.O.)

Nov 7 My health is bad, money, nothing, treason all over. Fought with Jeanne D'Arc, is it a threat? Yes. She has changed camp. I am in danger.

Nov 8 Sad week, not happy, stuck.

Nov 11 Met Valeska (my teenage daughter who is staff in Clearwater), my dad, thought it was he who was calling me (he thought Valeska was his father who had died when he was four). Ooh la la, Valeska. Saw Alain, no product.

Nov 14-15 Cyril is always stopping, very bad manager. Loide (a Scientologist) does not exchange, just asks for car, bike, etc.

Nov 16 Moved from Calumet (another house he had to sell) to Greenwood (small, one bedroom appartment), cried with pain, dizzy, tired, oppression.

Nov 17 Baer proposes a repayment, I sign the papers for that.

Nov 18 Baer does not send the money, strange story. Rhyner nothing, Jody no comm (communication).

Nov 19 This morning I asked Cyril to help me take the furniture upstairs, he refused.

Nov 22 Received 150,000 Swiss francs from Baer, lost $40,000 and all the unhappiness.

Nov 30 Cyril came to the house to ask for a new computer, I said "no", he left angry.

Dec 1 I am very tired, chest constricted, I do not think I will finish the year.

Dec 2 Cyril went back to Switzerland without saying goodbye. Received auditing in the evening, feeling faint, I do not feel good at all.

Dec 3 This morning very faint if I move too much, a lot of chest pain.

Dec 4 Sick.

Dec 5 This week sad, sick, anxious.

Dec 7 I am very anxious.

Dec 8 I will sign for San Salvador (to sell it). Ariane and Stefan are moving the furniture out.

Dec 9 (last entry) Not a lot of money left on the account.

PLEASE DISTRIBUTE THIS AS BROADLY AS POSSIBLE AND, IN THAT WAY, ALBERT WILL NOT HAVE SUFFERED AND DIED IN VAIN. SOME GOOD CAN MAYBE COME OUT OF IT AND OTHERS CAN BE SAVED FROM A SIMILAR EXPERIENCE.

IN MEMORIAM ALBERT JAQUIER 1935---1994 THANK YOU, ALBERT.

Ariane, Michael and Alex.

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