Heidi Forrester (not her real name), ex-Sea Org, made the following statement:

In late 1975, I was told to report to the Hubbard Communications Office. The senior officer there at the time, informed me that I was to report to the Fifield Manor and go to the seventh floor. She gave me no other information. I did this without knowing why I was going.

At the Manor, I was directed to the elevator and went to the seventh floor. The entire floor was elaborately furnished to the point of suffocation. An S.O. member appeared and showed me to a door that was partly open.

I went into a very large living room with heavy curtains, pile carpet, overstuffed chairs and clean to the point of obsession.

Sitting on one of the chairs, drinking what looked like sherry, was a heavyset older man. He had reddish grey hair, slightly long in the back. We was wearing a white shirt, black pants, black tie, and black shoes, highly polished.

He didn't say a word and slowly got up, motioned me to follow him into the next room.

I didn't know if it was Hubbard, and wondered if I was to have either an auditing session or an interview. I followed him.

I found myself in a lavish bedroom. This still didn't worry me as sometimes interviews and sessions were held in bedrooms at the Hollywood Inn for staff.

There was a small table set up with an E-meter on it and again I thought about a session.

Without a word he suddenly began to undress me.

I was repelled by him.

I did not want to sleep with him. Yet, I felt really chilled and cold to the bone at that moment.

I acutely sensed real fear and danger in the room. In an instant I realized the calculated power coming from this person. If I resisted I knew that my punishment would be extreme.

His eyes were so blank, no emotion, no interaction, nothing was there.

I made the decision not to resist no matter what happened. I realized it would be a bad mistake for me to do so. He seemed to be completely divorced from reality. He was so strange that I realized that if I provoked him he could be extremely dangerous.

I let him undress me without resisting.

I was totally unprepared for what happened next.

He lay on top of me.

As far as i can tell he had no erection. However, using his hand in some way he managed to get his penis inside me.

Then for the next HOUR he did absolutely nothing at all. I mean nothing!

After the first twenty-five minutes I became about as frightened as I have ever been in my live. I felt as if in some perverse way he was telling me that he hated me as a female. I then began to feel that my mind was being ripped away from me by force.

That was the worst of all. I really felt he "coveted" an aspect of my personality and he wanted it. This was weird, total control on a level I could not fathom at that time. I had no idea what was happening.

After half an hour I really thought I was going crazy. I couldn't move my body from underneath him, and I could feel he still had no erection.

He wouldn't look at me, but instead kept his head averted to the side and just gazed into space.

I had to discipline myself to keep from screaming because I felt I was having a nervous breakdown.

Then I got the terrible thought that he was dead. He was hardly breathing. Then I thought he would kill me too. My thoughts became very morbid.

After an hour he got up and walked out.

I just lay there for ten minutes. Then mechanically I got dressed. Instantly after that I began crying hysterically. I cried and cried and cried.

I wasn't afraid of becoming pregnant. I was so afraid of whatever had been going on in this man's head.

Finally when I couldn't cray anymore, I went downstairs and took a bus back to ASHO.

I didn't say a word to anyone.

(From Messiah or Madman by Bent Corydon, pg 133-134)

L. Ron Hubbard : BIGAMIST http://www.clambake.org/archive/ronthenut/bigamy.htm

L. Ron Hubbard : THIEF http://www.ronthenut.org/thief.htm

L. Ron Hubbard DIED ON PSYCH DRUGS http://home.earthlink.net/~snefru/deathoflrh/

L. Ron Hubbard : PARANOID AND SCHIZOPHRENIC http://www.lermanet.com/cos/morejud.html

L. Ron Hubbard : CONVICTED OF FRAUD http://www.lermanet.com/cos/LRHfraud.html

L. Ron Hubbard and BLACK MAGICK http://www-2.cs.cmu.edu/~dst/Library/Shelf/wakefield/us-02.html

L. Ron Hubbard : COLLEGE DROPOUT http://www.bible.ca/scientology-hubbard-grades.htm

L. Ron Hubbard : RACIST http://thingy.apana.org.au/~fun/scn/racism/

L. Ron Hubbard 's FAKE WAR RECORD http://www.ronthewarhero.org/

L. Ron Hubbard : IMPOTENT http://www.ronthenut.org/limpwhat.htm

L. Ron Hubbard : WHORE MONGER http://www.ronthenut.org/payforit.htm

L. Ron Hubbard : DRUG ADDICT http://www.ronthenut.org/dope.htm

L. Ron Hubbard : SATANIST http://www.ronthenut.org/antichri.htm

L. Ron Hubbard and ADOLF HITLER http://www.ronthenut.org/hubbard-.htm

L. Ron Hubbard the PSYCH PATIENT http://www.ronthenut.org/beg.htm

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