To My Old OSA Buddies: An Update!

I thought I would give each of you an update as to where I am since I last talked to many of you.

Last year at this time I had been asked (and accepted) to be the ED of the "Scientology Parishioners League". This was set up with the purpose to "handle black PR in the media" The VP of OSA INT, Janet Weiland, was my senior, and she is a good person, however misguided. As you each know, she cannot go on the Internet, so she literally does not know most of what you all know.

This year I have left the 'church', have been declared a SP (Suppressive Person) without any "ethics gradients". I was actually declared and part of a fair game deal where OSA was actively third partying (spreading lies about me) to my friends for a month, before they ever told me I was declared. This year I have up two, now three, videos that I am sure scientology thinks is black PR, although the truth is, they merely tell the truth about what has occurred to me.

Last year at this time I thought the critics were religious bigots, and for the most part very bad people. I had talked to only a few, however I could not hear what they were saying at all.

This year I have met many, many of the critics, and many of the Famous Ex-Scientologists, and I can tell you with 100% certainty that your views of them are not only false, they are filled with lies that are so deep and insidious, it is pathetic. The critics are not religious bigots. They are not just some misguided group of kooks who are trying to hurt scientology. The ones I know are amazingly smart, and caring people. All of this began with one simple thing OSA tried to do: Stop Freedom of Speech by attempting to cancel ARS. Many people who NEVER would have gotten onto this train, are on it full speed due to this. Since, they have learned and experienced much of OSA's Fair Game tactics, and thus the group has grown, and grown. I honestly did not believe AT ALL that Fair Game was in use. It is more than you can imagine.

Last year at this time I was telling anyone who mentioned Bob Minton's name that I was sure he was paid by the psych's as people with money do not throw it around like that.

This year I know Bob Minton, and nothing could be farther from the truth. I am very sorry for slandering him so, and am shocked that I could do this without ever having met the man. However in scientology this sort of thing goes on unnoticed or unchecked, for the simple reason scientologists think they are better than most people due to having such "amazing tech". Bob Minton is caring, fun and outspoken about issues he cares about, and one of them happens to be scientology. I have walked with him, talked with him, and picketed with him, and he has been very kind to me each time.

Last year I believed Scientology was a religion, although even last year I had my doubts (having started to have my doubts years earlier, having watched so much go down in this group) This year I truly do not think it is a religion, for the same reasons I had my doubts before. No one really believes in God, and there is NO assistance or tech re the Supreme Being LRH promotes as the 8th dynamic. I had listened to many celebrities on TV talk of how God had helped them, and I for one found it extremely pompous how flippant so many scios were re the subject of God. Not all, but way too many.

Last year at this time, and ever since DM announced The Golden Age Of BS, I was pissed at what he did. He told the OT 7's, in front of thousands, that they were only using 3 out of the 79 needed tools, and that for $25,000 they could get re trained and start over. I wrote him a letter that night telling him how unfair I thought that was, only to get a form letter back.

This year I am merely happy I am out and literally do not ever have to buy into that crap again.

Last year I was sick of this new tech style, having found it the opposite of what Hubbard promoted. He was very anti- memorization, which I loved, having been to Catholic schools all of my life that was big on memorization. This is ALL memorization, and extremely painful to me.

This year again I am just happy all the effort is gone. Done. Over. I know it for what it is, and it is not something I need or want.

Last year at this time, and for years and years earlier, I was feeling guilty because I was not doing enough to help free mankind.

This year I am thrilled to announce I am completely out of that trap, and free to do whatever I want to do. That cloud of guilt is gone. I am helping each person as I can, and learning from many I could never have heard before.

Last year at this time I was a spokesperson ~in my own way~ against the critics.

This year I am a spokesperson ~ in my own way~ for the critics. :) If there is one loss I have, it is that last year at this time, all of my old friends were in comm with me.

This year, none of them (with the exception of two) will talk to me. However, as a good friend pointed out to me early on: How good a friend can that be if they stop being your friend just because you changed your mind? This has been true, however sad that is. I honestly thought they had a little more guts, but I guess the tech is more important. It is one you say "of course" when you are in. It is totally ridiculous and shameful when you are out, and see the effects it has had on others.This is a hard one to feel, and painful, I will say.

But on the upside, this year I have many new and wonderful good friends, who are my friends unconditionally. They are great, and I am proud to have them as friends! Also, I would like to thank each and every person who has offered his or her kindness to me.

Last year at this time I thought Andreas was the devil.

This year he is one of my best friends. He has helped me more than I could ever say in words, and I thank him for his kindness and continual support.

Last year you knew me as Tory.

This year many know me as Tory, but also many know me as Magoo.

Last year at this time I thought the rest of my life I would be a scientologist, and could not even imagine what life would be like without scientology.

This year I know this is not true, at all. I am done, finished, and happily out.

Life is just fine without scientology, in fact, it is much nicer than being in!

Last year I would have never seen scientology as a cult.

This year I totally do. It is a cult, as hard as that may be for some to read.

Last year I still called non-scientologists "wogs".

This year I am a wog. :) (and proud of it!) Last year at this time I was always trying to tell people scientology is really good, and all they hear and see that is bad is told by religious bigots.

This year I tell people all the time I have left Scientology after 30 years, and I am shocked to hear how supportive each and every person is. Most people have their own personal horror stories re the group, I was surprised to hear.

This year I party with the critics, and share in their fight for freedom of speech.

Last year at this time I really wanted to help OSA, and I honestly thought they were a great group of people, fighting to protect their religion.

This year I have been majorly suprised to see the other side. I realize most of you reading this as part of OSA are part of a group where they keep you out of the know. The right hand never knows what the left hand is doing.

Convenient. But it IS shocking to actually hear what the real effects of OSA are.and how bad they are.

This is no light game. The only thing I can do is suggest as Andreas did to me, that you do your own research, and find out for yourselves. Really.

One last thing is, please do not waste your whole entire lives with your heads in the sand. There is reason scientology is hated by so many. Find out why.

Take an honest look, then you decide.

I am thrilled to say I am free. For the first time in my adult life, I am out of the cult and no one can make me feel guilty or like I should be doing more, etc. etc. (Now in scientology this will be taken immediately as I am a low responsibility case.and they wonder why people don't tell them things!) I am thrilled to announce that no longer can a group of people make me feel less because I have a physical illness. I am free of ALL of that PTS/SP BS that used to bother me to no end. I was thrilled to be declared an SP.now I could finally end the 30 year fight trying to prove I was not PTS! No, I am not pts.I AM SP! Bwahahahhahaha!

I am having fun, and not worrying if I am the wrong tone level when I say something. I can say whatever I want, and people I am with are extememly non-evaluative, which is wonderful! Being able to honestly express all of what you feel has an amazingly freeing effect on one, and I can say for sure last year I had no clue there was any suppression on my comm lines.

This year all the suppression is off: I am out of the Church of Scientology.

So I hope this brings you up to date with Magoo, aka Tory Bezazian.

I wish each of you a Merry Christmas. and I hope soon you come join me on this side! You would be AMAZED at how many people you know who have left scientology. It is shocking, truly. Most of the really cool people are out,,,,so come on, make the leap! You won't be sorry.

We await you, and we welcome you to real freedom.
Lovingly, Tory/Magoo~dancin in the moonlight~

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