In article <20001118045406.01592.00000508@ng-fp1.aol.com>, mistmagoo55@aol.com says...

>This is for the ex scios....
>
>At what point did you know Scientology was not for you....and if you
>could go back, when would you have changed>?
I knew shortly after I left the Sea Org in September 1983 that Scientology wasn't for me. My leaving was necessitated by having to find a job in order to pay for my wife's medical bills -- bills that ASHO would not have paid because my wife was not in the Sea Org.

And on my Sea Org "pay" of approximately $12 per week, there was absolutely no way I would have ever been able to pay for her bills related to her pregnancy.

Earlier that year (1983) a CMO Missionaire had already threatened to declare me a "Suppressive Person" for having a relationship with my wife, Victoria, who was not a Sea Org member. This was despite the fact that I had had approval from the Commanding Officer ASHO Day, Bill Brugger, to marry her. Our wedding was in July 1983.

After leaving the Sea Org, I remained in close contact with hundreds of Scientologists I had come to know over the previous eight years since my joining the Sea Org in October 1975. I eventually moved away from Los Angeles in 1989, fifteen months after my wife died.

For years I had maintained ties to individual Scientologists (many who had been Sea Org members themselves). During the period of September 1983 (when I left the Sea Org) and February 1989 (when I moved away from the Los Angeles area), I worked for a few business owners who were Scientologists. After beginning my own business in late 1987, I had several clients who were also Scientologists. During what I consider to be my transition phase from Scientology to the "real world", there was a continual insistence from many Scientologists to pay off my "freeloader debt", to do my "lower conditions" and to get "back on the bridge".

By February 1989 I knew with certainty I would never again go back into Scientology.

In retrospect there is one thing I would change if I had the chance (I can dream, anyway)... I would have taken my collection of various "ethics orders" I had accumulated over the years. I had a couple of legal size file folders *full* of all sorts of "ethics orders", including "non-enturbulation orders", "Committee of Evidence Findings and Recommendations", "SP Declares", "condition assignments", RPF assignments, "offloads", "fitness boards", etc.

In addition, I would have taken my files containing:

1) telexes from various Scientology management organizations 2) telexes (orders) from L. Ron Hubbard 3) my collection of thousands of Flag Orders 4) various other issues such as Aides Orders, CMO Int EDs, PAC Base Orders, SO Executive Directives, OODs, Scientology Policy Directives, Guardian Orders, Guardian Finance Orders, etc.

It is perhaps my biggest regret that I didn't bring everything with me that I could have when I left the Sea Org. If I had brought all of my files with me, I could *really* show the world the true face of the cult.

Warrior - Sunshine disinfects
http://warrior.offlines.org/

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