Subject: NEW OT8 RUNDOWN!!
From: "A. JACKSON" <106231.2751@compuserve.com>
Date: Tue, 3 Sep 1996 21:40:38 -0400
First, I need to correct a mistake I made when I said the Fishman
version of OT5 is still valid, it is NOT. Dennis pointed this out to me. I
had forgotten that there was a version of OT5 in the Fishman letter in
addition to NOTs. That version of OT5 called "Extroversion from MEST", is
NO longer valid. OT5 is just NOTs.
I spent 17 years receiving very heavy criticism of, and judgment on, my actions and decisions and was put under a microscope before doing EVERY OT level. I received 100's of hours of sec-checking into every aspect of my life, including my most intimate thoughts and deeds. I was questioned at great length by "Ethics Officers", sometimes in groups calling themselves "Boards of Investigation". All this resulted in a conviction on my part that I had NEVER made a good decision, that I was TOTALLY INCAPABLE of doing so, and that I was a bad person. This experience made me avoid decisions if at all possible, always defer to my husband or a friend, ask my children's advice, do "what Ron would do", ask my auditor, do nothing until forced to act when a situation deteriorated, never disagree, etc., etc. Now I have decided to "share" OT8 instead of using the threat to do so to secure protection or other gain. I still don't know if it's the right decision.
I have NO OT8 materials in my possession. My description is from memory, but, as you will see, there is not a lot to remember. New OT8 consists of two parts; A and B. Part A is E-meter drills and drilling actions required on a C/S 53 (this is an action supposed to find and "handle" mental trauma arising from past bad auditing or life situations that will interfere with auditing) Part B consists of reading History of Man and getting very thoroughly checked out on it, and studying and solo-auditing New OT8. The description of the rundown given in the materials is not at all precise. In that respect it differs from all other actions I did in Scientology. There is no question(s) given in quotation marks. The instructions simply state that you have to look over your past auditing and take the past-life identities you have discovered you were and check them on the E-meter to see if they are true or false. You cannot look at your folders so you do the identities you remember. Some of the people initially responsible for supervising OT8 were RPF'd for giving us suggestions on what to do. Without words put in our mouths we did not know what to do. The first thing you do is the C/S 53. Then the instructions from the Case Supervisor consist of 1. Fly a rud (ie. "handle" anything your attention is on) 2. OT8.
and the instructions do not change throughout the rundown.
Here is an example of what I did in an actual session, and what I wrote because I had to write down what I did.
I took the identity "Beethoven" because I remembered having
"realised" in auditing that I "was" Beethoven. I looked at the E-meter I
was connected to and I thought about being Beethoven and I thought the
question "True?" and looked to see if the meter reacted. It didn't. I
thought the question "False?" and the meter reacted. So I had NOT actually
been Beethoven. Here is what I wrote (it's in French, my native tongue)
Beethoven
Vrai? x ("x" means no meter reaction)
Faux? LF ("LF" means Long Fall, a meter reaction)
F/N (Floating Needle means the action concerning Beethoven is finished and
I am happy about it)
Of all the identities I checked on OT8 only one turned out to be
true. I was allowed to attest that I had finished when I had a "big
cognition" (ie. a realization) about death. I had had a very strong fear of
death which had not resolved in all the auditing I had done. On OT8 I
realised that I, the being, would never die and I was "totally blown out"
as Scientologists would say. I was now OT8 and I came back home and promptly got sick.
Because of the hype OT8s are regarded as demi-gods and have to conceal the problems and inadequacies they have. I had the opportunity to study the "cases" of some OT8s and speak with others and I realised I was by no means the only OT8 with problems. Some of the problems suffered by OT8s are alcoholism, homosexuality (regarded by Scientology as a degraded, perverted activity only indulged in by individuals who are not worthy of having ANY rights in society), extra-marital affairs, voyeurism, heart attacks, strokes, criminality, and divorce.
Voila.
Ariane Jackson, Sept 1996.