The best freedom is of the mind and soul. Scientology takes that away and before you even know it you are ready to give up all your own "dreams" and "goals" and "life" to follow someones psychotic illusions of the perfect world. I thought I had found my haven of resoultion, reason and purpose for my existence. I almost ran with it. You see , I was always a true believer in the goodness of man/woman in the world.

I believed in fighting for human rights and against injustices. I would be one of the "speical" ones fighting to clear the planet.I thought I had found my place in the world. A place where there was a common purpose. But I was wrong. I never believed that "I" could ever be placed under any mind control. I never understood it. I always believed I was too smart to be decieved. But I was wrong and I had to humbly admit this. I was not a long time member. I went through a brief honeymoon phase. I left the first time when a friend became concerned about my taking a course at the org. I had a mini intervention. I went on the web after that and searched for "truths".

I believed some of them. The then time passed by and things happened in my life. I became vunlerable. I believe there are good and bad on each side of this battle. I became disillusioned by the anti side. I saw some fanatics with noble causes to spread the truth about C0$ but also saw dysfunctions that clouded what they originally set out to do.

I had been in contact with some people from the Zone. also. I thought to myself at the time..Hey, I got it all wrong. I am on the wrong side. I thought all I have to do is get back on course. So I went back and tried to.(That is another story) I regret many things I have done in trying to get back on this "invisible bridge" of freedom. Many things I feel bad about today. But then I was lucky. Steve Hassan, Monica Pignotti(as well as others) saved me by explaining the truth.

By educating me on how MIND CONTROL works. I never understood that part. It never clicked. Until now. My family did not become involved, although they knew. I was completely alone. If not for Steve and Monica (and others I won't name) there help I wouldn't be here now writing. I would not be free. I thank them for that and will be enternally greatful. To know the truth sets us free. I have been reading the ARS postings. Some make me laugh and some are sad. I see the true purpose of it as those are on the side of trying to tell the truth But it makes me sad to see those on the same side fighting each other. OSA"S little games thrown in do not help but people fall into it. One think that turned me away from CO$ totally was after I met with Steve I went on Lerma's site. I saw a picture of Noah Lottick.

His face burned into my mind. I did not want to end up there. In the darkness of death itself. No one understood what I was going through.

None of my "wog" friends (oops, there goes that ol' scieno talk), I mean outside friends. It really sucks when you feel alone in the mist of a war within yourself. Well, there is more to this story but I will speare you the boring details. I have said enough.

OUT & FREE In a Hubbard Lecture he states " All we have to do is look"...Well, I did and thank god I did...

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