Being declared SP was the best thing that ever happened to me in Scn. It was a better "release" than attesting to Clear or completing the Key to Life course. You may not know that the phrase "bridge to total freedom" resulted from a tone scale survey (PR tech) and is supposed to push a button with the reader, make them want that which is being advertised. Sadly, members of this group will never experience total freedom while under org control.
Never. The little strings run back to the Case Supervisor, back to the reg, back to the stack of PC folders that represent your case. It's a snare that tightens when you struggle ...
I understand that you don't want to blow today. So leave on a gradient.
Visit your family this holiday, perhaps ones you haven't seen in a while.
Read a newspaper. Rent a fun video or DVD. Take your children on an outing for a whole day. Think about the "wog" job you could get and how you would spend the money from it.
Visit a public library and look up a non-LRH book. Use a friend's computer to visit a critical web site. You're on the path to total freedom.
See you soon, outside the perimeter fence.
Chip