Part 6.

While I was a resident of Monaco for 2 years (Monaco-Monte Carlo is in the south of France, nera Nice) I painted, audited O.T.7 full-time and worked at improving my art promotional slide-show.

I went back to Flag every 6 months or so to get verified as to my progress on the level. It was 1983-84-85. I stayed out of the internal power-politics of the whole scene and minded my own business while getting through O.T.7. In 1985 it seemed that the situation had settled down and was pretty bearable even though the spirit had gone from the group to a very large degree.

I went to Mexico to promote my art and did quite well there after getting through the awful sickness of reaction to either water or food for a few terrible days. I made some money, some friends and some new art prospects in a short period, some Scientologists and others not. I was, however, very very shocked at the disparity of wealth and income between the Scientologists and their employees. I visited their factories and understood that the people working there earned about $60 a month but the "boss" (an O.T. 7) was getting over $50,000.00 a month for showing up occasionally. He was donating heavily (hundreds of thousands of dollars) to Scientology (I don't want to name names here, but there were about 12 people I knew in similar situations)and getting Scientology accolades for being so "upstat" and admirable.

It was disheartening and sickening to see the lazy bosses in their marble palaces with olympic size swimming pool in the living room, while the families of the workers struggled to even have food and makeshift shelters. This was, surely, a problem of Mexican society, not of Scientology, but it was eye-opening to me to see the truth behind the "upstat" donors and their ego-trips being made on the backs of exploited workers. "Exchange" was not "in" but it didn't apparently matter to those receiving the donations in the "church". One senior Mexican O.T 7 was in business in the clothing industry. Their way of doing business, so I found out, was to go to Spain, buy attractive baby clothes, take them back to Mexico and copy the designs for free as plagiarized styles. I got really sick of the attitudes there and moved to Clearwater to be near Flag and complete my O.T.7.

I moved into a building near the Sandcastle Hotel, where O.T.7 was being supervised. I continued the level and attended Flag events. For those who don't know, the annual menu of "events" in Scientology are a great part of the "group bonding" of the whole world-wide structure.

typically, the biggest events were on March 13th for Hubbard's Birthday, May 9th for 1950 launch of Dianetics Book anniversay and New Year Event. At Flag the Sea Org anniversary, I think it is some time in September? was a big deal. At these events, which resemble each-other dramatically, Scientology International management makes its rare public appearances, all "dressed to kill" (hmmmm) in tuxedos or naval uniforms and give off shopping lists of "wins", "breakthroughs", statistics (usually with blank graphs without actual numbers), victories over psychiatrists, results in the fight against pharmaceuticals such as Ritalin etc..,legal victories over insane suppressive enemies or ex-members who were yapping too loudly and new incursions into social fields such as education, drug abuse rehabilitation, prisons or mental health.

Attendees, such as myself and the 2,000 or so other people at these packed Flag Auditorium events, got regular exercise during the proceedings due to the yo-yo effect of giving Ron Hubbard's big stage photo standing ovations every few minutes due to the grandiosity of the "news" and the apparently overwhelming successes Scientology was reported to be having in the world. The Management regime took turns at giving, from their own specialized areas, the "impressive successes", amazing breakthroughs for sale, new books and courses for sale, new art properties for sale, new auditing actions for sale, donations (sales) to further pet management projects, and awards to the most "upstat" donors to sell the idea that others should follow suit by giving huge donations too, etc. After the events the public people (clients) would habitually be met by a wall of staff members all selling the new releases and getting commissions on the sales.

With nthe paltry amounts they usually earned they were almost hysterically motivated to sell anyone anything on the spot.

These events were the medium to cement the group together several times a year and to over-ride individual upsets, disagreements, annoyances or doubts about being a dutifully contributing member. The cheering of Ron, the hip-hip hoorahs yoy-yo repetitive process, the amazingly admirable successes, stats, awards, releases... all went to bond me and the other attendees into the group anew whatever pain or frustrations I was going through while trying to get to O.T 8 and the powers and abilities that were "surely" there. The group enthusiasm was contagious to a point of being addictive. This may explain a few things to more than a few people.

By this time the dry-land navy (Sea Organization) had found a way of getting a big ship to sail on. The answer was simple....get the Scientology public to donate one! We were asked, over and over, to make Ship donations for the New O.T. levels "that could not be delivered on dry land!!" Wow, well I did donate a bit but not too much. Others, mostly Mexican businessmen (ahem) donated hundreds of thousands of dollars each, some others, americans, germans, french, isrealis and more...donated millions in part-payments and packages for OT8 and OT9, with Ship Accommodations, named cabins, were being sold in large quantities. Eventually the cruise ship "Boheme" was purchased for about $30million and extensively renovated. It was later named the "Freewinds" and was based in Curacao, Netherlands Antilles, just north of the Venezuelan coast.

It was being readied for "NEW O.T.8 !!!!!" Wowwwww! To my mind, if OT8 had to absolutely be delivered at sea it must be because it made us so powerful that landlubbers must not be alarmed or overwhelmed by it all. Something of the order of "A being at Cause over life, matter, energy, space, time, bith subjective and objective"....as was advertised on the Hubbard Grade Chart!

Well, back to reality; my attempts to get "cured" of being gay per Hubbard's book writings that he could do so by my using his tech (as was a constant factor in all my auditing endeavors) met with results that were up-and-down, on-and-off, and temporary to say the least. It was not working and I could see no real results that lasted more than a few hours or a day or two. It was still ruining my life as a Scientologist and I got sent to "ethics" over and over and over for "handlings", ethics conditions, repairs, reviews, ad nauseam. It was as if I were trying to do away with a part of myself that, according to the group, "shouldn't be there" and was an aberration to be erased.

No amount of releasing (apparently) of dead space aliens and dark entities from my body had a lasting effect on my being gay or straight, even when I got special "tailor-made" auditing on the subject.

By the end of 1985 I was still plodding on relentlessly with hopes and aspirations about getting to be a heterosexual disembodied causative spirit with amazing powers of telekinesis and effective thought projection. We heard Ron's tape (cassette) of his 1986 "New Year's Message" where we heard the voice say that OT8 was ready to be delivered. The picture I had of Ron being there on the Ship to greet us and make us superhuman was mentally surrounded in dazzlingly bright lights of hope and accomplishment.

In January 1986 those lights went out. (see part 7)

*********************************************** *********************************************** WHAT I SAW, WHAT I LEARNED LATER ABOUT SOME OF THESE MATTERS;

1. Although the lawyers and tax-IRS-related personnel who actually owned Scientology (such as those in "Church of Spiritual Technology", C.S.T) were manipulating and running a lot of corporate things which affected our lives they were never seen or heard of by us at events.

They were "non-existant" as far as we were concerned.

Such people had a "zero profile" to the membership. Apart from seeing them at events, the management's daily activities or dealings, handling of vast amounts of monies was "invisible" to even staff at any lower level. Where the money went was anyone's guess. The actual use of monies by management still remains a big mystery today, but some data is available on the internet.

2. The Ship, Freewinds, was needed by the Sea Org (so their little navy could be rehydrated) and the I.A.S (so it could have an off-shore command centre from which to attack various governments with outrageous P.R. etc...Germany was one).

The full page ads with black propaganda against foreign governments were framed and displayed by the I.A.S offices on deck C of the Freewinds. It was/is a floating base that can move away from retalitions.

3. OT9 was sold in huge quantities but never has been delivered to anyone. It may not even exist in fact.

4. The actual statistics given out in wildly ascending graph trend lines at the events I attended may have been often false and misleading. Realities often bore little resemblence to the dynamics of "stellar" (a frequent buzz-word) stats and expansion when I visited many orgs and missions with my art show. The states and conditions of things "on the ground", I could directly observe, were wildly at variance with the glowing reports and adrenalin-rush "astounding science fiction" feats of magnificence given out at events. On many occasions while I was giving art lectures and pep talks as a celebrity in orgs and missions (I gave over 200 events in about 40 cities from 1980 to about 1989)the local top executives would confide in me their difficulties on post etc... so I had a very good over-view of what the realities were when compared to the management reports to us. It got worse and worse as time went by.

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From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) 7 Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part 7
Date: 29 Aug 2003 23:08:20 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308292208.6162ad69@posting.google.com>

(MPES) 7

In January 1986, we in Clearwater got a call from Flag to come to a vital briefing that night in the auditorium. I think it was 24th or thereabouts.

The auditoruim was packed. David Miscavige came on stage, with other people and they announced that L.Ron Hubbard had "finished his research and that his human body was holding him back so he had dropped it and gone on to the next planet to be cleared. We were in total shock. They went on to say, taking turns at giving information (Pat and Annie Broeker, Earl Cooley and David Miscavige)that he had consulted with him (Pat) prior to dropping his body and asked if Scientologists would grieve at his passing. Pat had replied yes.

Apparently Hubbard had instructed him to tell people not to grieve and to focus on the job ahead, and to use his legacy of tech to save mankind.

Earl Cooley, one of a small army of Scientology attorneys at the time but one who was particularly close to top management, came up to the microphone and told us essentially that Ron's body was still perfectly functional when he left it and that his instructions were to have a burial at sea (ashes) and that that had been done swiftly so there was no grave to visit or tomb to flock to. We were then distracted from the news by talk about Ron's ranch, his OT research and content designed to take attention off the fact that we had lost "Source". Ron had been regarded as the "God" of Scientology, and now he was gone.

Pat Broeker came out with a slide projected on a big screen that was a set of 33 triple numbers with commas separating them. He said that this was a date from OT10 and that it was an enormous breakthrough in the tech of auditing. One million has just 2 commas; this one had 32.

The number was unimaginable. He also said Ron had defined music as "something that softens the impact of time on OTs". The data was fascinating but bewildering. No-one there, as far as I could see, had really moved past the point of Ron being dead and gone, cremated, thrown away and disappeared, all so soon.

We had to go back home, call all our Scientology friends, no ,matter what time of day or night it was in Europe, or anywhere else, and tell them the version of the news we had just heard before anyone would read about it in the newspapers next day. I called several friends overseas and got them to relay the message immediately. In this way the newspaper reports were softened on the Scientologists all over the world. Two days later the Challenger blew up and Hubbard's death left the main pages of the newsmedia.

I had been shocked to the point of wanting to join the Sea Org as I wanted to help mankind so much. That is just part of who I am. I signed up and got a preparation program to pay off debts (I had accumulated debt to get recent auditing at Flag). To cut a long story very short I never entered the Sea Org as the more I tried to pay off debt the worse business went. (Thank God for that, in retrospect!)

I continued my art, auditing on OT7 and socializing with Scientologists in Clearwater until 1986, later in the year and then moved to San Fransico area to try to get more art clients. I was off OT7 for a while after a big upset that I had dropped my bid to join the Sea Org and had annoyed several people because of it. It was just not meant to be and I knew it. I lived in Palo Alto and another S.F Bay area City, got some locals into Scientology and generally enjoyed the area very much. I was not able to get an immigration visa or residency so I left the USA in 1988 to return to Paris.

With having lived in so many places, toured with my art to so many cities I had literally hundreds of Scientology friends, clients and associates in many countries. I still have all their names and addresses. I continued to audit on OT7 in Paris in 1988 and 1989. I also went to the Celebrity Centre, where the Rosenbergs had been reinstated a few years earlier after the initial finance police purges were exhausted and finance police dissolved.

In 1989 I had started an idea of helping the Art world with some special writings of my own, from my own experience and inspirations as a professional artist. It was a freeing and uplifting set of ideas that I started to write as articles for members of my proposed club/association/movement, whatever you may want to call it. It was originally going to be titled "Universal Renaissance". I was still working on this (and still gay despite all the efforts I had made) when I felt I had come to the completion of OT7. I went to Flag, got checked out on all that was going on, and attested to "NEW OT7 COMPLETION" in December 1989.

After going through more "eligibilty programs", ethics handlings (on being still a bit gay, lol)....I eventually went from Flag to the Freewinds to do "NEW OT8"!! Wow, finally! Well, not so fast! When I arrived there were still more "eligibility programs" to do, folders to be checked with close scrutiny and baby steps to please the "Ethics Officer", now called a "Master -at-arms" because we were on a ship. It was rather pleasant being on a smart cruise ship for a while, but when 3 weeks had gone by and I was still not on OT8 I protested vehemently.

Others had arrived a long time after me and had sailed straight onto OT8, so why not me?? Well, the folders had to be checked and re-checked and, frankly the auditing folders became far more important than me. I was disappointed to see the folders getting all the attention and me very little. It was really as if I had to adapt myself to ensure the folders were ready to go on to OT8 and not the other way round.

I eventually got an "Invitation" to do NEW OT8 in January 1990.

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WHAT I SAW, WHAT I LEARNED ON VARIOUS POINTS ABOVE WITH HINDSIGHT.

1. Ron had died under extremely suspicious circumstances. There is a lot of internet factual record of that so I will just be brief on that here. It seems that he died a disheveled and unkempt old guy with psych drugs in his system (Vistaril) per the coroners report. Also, his Will had been significantly changed THE DAY BEFORE HE SUPPOSEDLY DIED. All photos taken of his body were intentionally destroyed. The cremation had taken place very fast, almost weirdly fast. There were many many really important questions not given answers but swept under the rug, so to speak. It looks like like a massive cover-up.

2.Eligibilty programs are used to elicit extra contribution in effort, support and monies from the Scientology "public". I had to prove I was contributing to the expansion of Scientology, and not being an enemy or a non-contributor, to get "invited" onto the secret OT levels.

3. OT7 took me 7 years to complete,and I audited well over 1000 hours (solo) on it, all having to do with removing the excess of low spirits (lol) or "body thetans" (also known on the web as "space cooties, dead space aliens and Xenu entities) per the materials that have been posted on the internet for free, but for which I had to pay tens of thousands of dollars.

4. I was a slave to my folders, whose condition was, apparently, far more important than mine. This was quite humiliating in actual practice, though it may seem funny to some who have not experienced that. If the folders weren't right **I** had to be changed to make them right. Yikes. Hey maybe my paperwork went O.T instead of me?? ; )

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From: ShyDavid@whitehouse.gov (ShyDavid)
Subject: Re: (MPES) 7 Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part 7
Date: Sat, 30 Aug 2003 21:39:11 GMT
Message-ID: <3f511960@news2.lightlink.com>

On 29 Aug 2003 23:08:20 -0700, karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson) wrote:

> (MPES) 7

(Omitted)

Your Scientology experiences as related here in this series fills me with sympathy for you and current Scientology customers. There's no way I can know or understand what it is like to be so utterly used, abused, defrauded, and discarded in such a vulgar, despicable way. I hope I never do.

You wrote that you heard about OT8 and how it gives a person absolute power over "MEST," and that you wanted such an ability. This desire seems to me to be grossly selfish and arrogant: a trait I suspect most Scientology customers share. That does not negate the desire among victims of Scientology to "help mankind:" obviously that is also a strong motivation, and should be lauded.

What I find very difficult as a concept to grasp is how a person can believe that she or he can achieve magic powers and abilities equal to that which one generally attributes to the gods. Nothing in all of known human history has even hinted that such a thing is possible.

While humans are somewhat clever and somewhat creative, our skills at such things are hugely limited. We can perform only a tiny fraction of what our imagination wish and dream about doing.

Is it not OBVIOUS that people cannot, and therefore do not, move objects just by wishing them moved? Is it not OBVIOUS that to move an object, mere mental desire isn't enough? It is an observed fact, never even once demonstrated to be false, that "paranormal abilities" (such as ESP, "psychic" abilities, astrology, to name hundreds of fraudulent beliefs) either do not exist or that humans cannot perform or observe such abilities. No one has ever demonstrated a "psychic" ability: this is an OBVIOUS fact, no less than the sun appearing in the East every morning.

Scientology Inc. cannot create "Operating Thetans" because the abilities and powers Scientology Inc. attributes to OTs do not exist.

This is OBVIOUS.

It is therefore a vast mystery to me how anyone can fall for Scientology. To me, trying to understand such a person is like trying to understand the thinking processes of a insect. It is so far beyond my ken that I've given up even trying.

-- It is not treason to demand answers to why G.W. Bush lied.

"President" Bush2 was in one hell of a bind this week when it turned out that Saudi Arabia funded the 9/11 attacks, not Iraq.

Realizing we'd invaded the wrong country, Bush did the honorable thing: he's come out against homosexual marriages.

From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) 8 Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part 8
Date: 30 Aug 2003 16:24:52 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308301524.22cd6bd4@posting.google.com>

(MPES) 8

So, there I was, on the Freewinds with an "Invitation" to do New O.T.8! The top of the Bridge had finally been reached and I was about to get my real O.T. abilities!! that is what all the films, ads, brochures, and registrars had promised!

I set off for the courseroom in the front of the ship with a view of the poop deck. Invitation in hand, I showed it to the guard at the double doors, took my entry magnetic card and slid it into the security swipe-machine. I got a green light and entered.

The courseroon was relatively large and light due to the numerous windows. I went to the supervisor, Alice, who had also been my supervisor on O.T7 in previous years. She welcomed me and took me to the course administration window to get a course pack to use for studying. It was explained that, due to an electronic security system, I had only 30 seconds to get my pack "plugged in again" at my study table before alarms would sound. I thought this was kind of exciting and that it must mean a rare and powerful set of materials was being so heavily protected. Wow!!

I got it plugged in at my space within the time limit and eagerly opened the pack. Let's see.....ok....it starts off with "Keeping Scientology Working" Policy Letter...no surprise there. Then the usual parade of basic course Policy Letters, ok, then Training routines, E-meter drills all 3 times through, yikes..again???....and a book "A History of Man" to read. Ok, so where;s NEW O.T8 stuff??? I dared to inquire of Alice "where the beef was", so to speak, and she said with a knowing smile...."in pack number 2!" Groan....I had to do all this well-worn and over-familiar stuff for weeks before I could get to pack #2??? Darn!! Oh well, "the way out is the way through" so I swallowed my disappointment and got to douing the usual drills. I was twinned with Craig Jensen and John Coale (Greta Van Susteren's husband) as neds arose.

I think it took something like 10 days to 2 weeks to get through pack #1. However, I did not miss seeing that others studying pack #2 had a skinny set of papers to study, and were not "over the moon" about what was in there....in fact they were asking questions like "where's the rest?", is this all there is? and how do I do this auditing, as it seems too simple to be all there is...?" They were suitably hushed-up by Alice, and "handled" with referral 100% to their written materials and no verbal explanations.

When my time came to get the vastly POWERFUL (supposedly) N*E*W* *O*T* *8* pack #2 I was excited, but not too much any more. I had already seen other students come back from auditing it and they were mostly not much different from before... Some did exhibit big smiles and laughter, for sure, but I had seen them do that on several other auditing levels too while at Flag.

Pack#2 was indeed a skinny set of around 12 pages only. Not much "meat" to it... For details on the procedure, Ariane Jackson has already posted it to the internet years ago, so my repeating it here would be redundant and un-necessary. I am sure someone will oblige and post the relevant url of the Google or web link for Ariane's posting.

It was very accurate and complete, even if very short.

So, I went off to audit the level and had some wins along the way, but was no longer expecting very much. I audited for a few days and eventually had a win that was simple yet, to me, powerful. I saw how "simple" I was as a spiritual being. Not complex just simple (but not dumb, though the length of time it took me to see I had been scammed might make others believe so,.....lol). Well, I was invited to attest the level and did so. It came up once in a deposition, and was stated as "I now know who I am not, and am interested in finding oput who I am". that was IT. I did feel really good at finding out how simple a spiritual being can be, but there were NO O.T.POWERS that I had been so extremely keen on attaining!!! Oh Nooooo!! Of course, everything was hush-hush and I couildn't say anything about the level being so "light" on actual content without getting slammed as a group memeber, and i could not afford any more "reviews and ethics handlings with ship accommodations at around $140 a day!

I was "announced" at a festive event in the cabaret room, and gave the wins I felt at that time. I was happy to have done all I could do and to have finally "made it". I did enjoy the fact that I had finally reached the end of the available "Bridge?" and that now I could get on with life instead of struggling up new levels and ridding myself of another few million space alien spirits, though.

: ))

P.S. IF they WERE really trapped alien spirits, sprites, beings or entities and not just figments of the imagination or invisible Orcs from Mordor (lol), the my best guess as to how many I "released" from 1981 to 1990 is approximately 4 or 5 Billion (4,500,000,000), maybe more, from my body and from my electronic field aura and from other locations near, far and miscellaneously positioned across the universe. Being "thetans" or "static" or "life units" they don't take up much space but they could be a pain in the butt, or wherever else they may have been "lodged. If I actually did all that then I cleaned house in a whole lot of places.

My biggest objection was always..."Why do *I* have to pay so much money to free up other "beings" who go free at no cost?" The usual staff response to my question was a disapproving look and a resounding silence, rather like a big firework display of O.T abilities that never takes place.

I did a lot of costly spiritual self-cleaning along the way. I got cleaned out financially too, but that is par for the course as a dedicated "Scientologist."

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NOTE;

I would like to thank those who have read all the postings under the MPES series so far. It is actually therapeutic for me to finally post my story as fully as possible (all the while bearing relevancy and reader interest in mind) as emotional, mental, financial and social recovery has been a rather difficult task after the whole experience.

It is still not over.

As far as I know nobody else in the world has gone from so far down in the depths of Scientology indoctrination (New OT8) right up to "SP7"

(a term used on alt.religion.scientology newsgroup to denote a person who has sued Scientology) and the real self-determinism and freedom that being OUT of Scientology so well and far has afforded me.

What follows in the several closing postings of this (MPES) series has, I believe, never been posted before. It shows how insanely crazy the cult got and how incredibly unworkable the "admin tech" was in my own case of trying to obtain recourse from major injustices from 1991 to 1997.The staff of several organizations got really angry and vindictive in its "handlings" with me when I refused to just bow down and accept lies that were designed to break me down into compliance with the overgrown egos of cult management and the blatant lies they false-reported about me. I was extensively grilled on some of the matters written in these following postings while under deposition when I sued the cult.

It is a matter of pride for me to have actually survived thus far the attacks, injustices and insanity of the cult's covert operations branch that wages war in peace time and compulsively and habitually blames their own crimes on others to try to cover their tracks. Also, if anything untoward might "happen" to me in the future then the record of my direct experiences with Scientology will already be publicly available and not remain either unpublished or forgotten. Let my experiences be a warning to others who might become or start to get tangled in the web of cult indoctrination that Scientology uses to ensnare and trap innocent people.

I have taken a few days off to do all these postings as I believe it is my duty and right to post the truth on the internet to clear away some of Scientology's world wide web of lies. Why now? you may ask...well ever since I saw and read on the internet recently a posting from Caroline Letkeman showing a recently discovered "checksheet" of Scientology's "Department of Special Affairs"

(INVESTIGATIONS OFFICER FULL HAT CHECKSHEET, -OSA INT ED 508R, 1991) a course of staff study which, I suddenly became aware of, was actually, apparently, practised on me as a result of such materials in that course and from 1991 and later. The main focus of the course is the art of attacking perceived "enemies" and conducting warfare, but is being taught by a so-called "religion". This is in tight parallel to the terrorism of 11 September 2001 where religious fanaticism and warfare were a deadly mix. Any country or territory that has Scientology on it (acording to what I know and have experienced with it) under whatever guise or "other name" is at very great risk of infiltration, subversive agendas and outright hostile take-over, as the agenda of Scientology is always openly stated as "world domination". Do not take such a warning lightly. It has been brought to you at great personal cost.

I realized that I had been the target of a determined and concerted set of warfare attacks from Scientology like a kind of terorist activity and decided to write about it here. In short, Scientology had, to my mind and observation, tried to destroy or kill me by various underhanded methods and detructive operations all planned out in advance. I recognized patterns of attack that are recommended in this checksheet and that I know are contained in some of the references included. The following postings outline these attacks. I went from a friend of scientology at the top of the "Grade Chart" to "hunted group prey" in a very short time. It may be fascinating and even entertaining to read about it from an office desk or armchair but I can assure you it was no fun to live it!

My response to attack and fair game has always been to come out with more truth and post it on the internet. Long live the truth, as it is the friend of the honest!

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From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) 9 Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part 9
Date: 30 Aug 2003 19:47:56 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308301847.6624817f@posting.google.com>

Part 9.

In February 1990 I completed the highest current level of pastoral counselling in the Church of Scientology, called O.T. 8. on the ship "Freewinds". I had, by that time,been an active member of C. of S.

since 1973. I had spent a very large sum of money on church counseling and training procedures, and had helped the C. of S. on numerous occasions when it had had difficulties.

As a furtherance of my career and my desire to see artists do better in life I decided to write up my own personal experiences in the field of the arts and to give the benefit of these experiences to young artists in particular. It is a difficult profession to be successful in, and I had learned "the hard way" what worked and what didn't work.

I wrote up a few pages of text on art and culture from my own experience, and started to send them out to others, to get their feed-back on its usefulness or not. The responses were wonderful, and this was from artists and art lovers alike. I decided to do this more fully and to start an artists association to unite artists under the umbrella of true data concerning the arts. The arts are full of false data that can drown a young artist very early on in their career.

I had a meeting of the newly-forming association in my home in Paris on April 7 1991. The people who attended were invited there by Mrs M.A. Doree, an assistant of mine back then. I did not know some of the people present, as it was the first time we met. The meeting went very well for all concerned, and a few attendees decided to enrol in the association. It was a very happy occasion.

On 9 April 1991 I went to the Church of Scientology Celebrity Centre of Paris to have lunch with Mr. and Mrs.Rosenberg, the Director and President of the Celebrity Centre. During lunch I mentioned actions I was doing to help artists under my new Initiative. Both Mr. and Mrs.

Rosenberg became very angry at my actions, without explaining why at that time.

Mrs. Sarit Rosenberg insisted that I come to her office to see some references on the subject (some internal administrative rules not written by L.Ron Hubbard, but by Church officials in Los Angeles).

Sarit Rosenberg proceeded to hysterically and angrily denounce all I was doing as some kind of "crime" (in her viewpoint) against the C.of S. I refused to abandon my purposes in the arts and, in particular, I would not agree to stopping the formation of my artists association.

At this point she made the following threats from her position as President of the C.of S. CC Paris;

that if I did not stop my artists association and my writings on art she would;

a)issue an official C. of S. restraining order (called a "Non-Enturbulation Order")on me. When one of these is issued it puts the "parishoner" in a very unsafe position in the Church in that if even one other report comes from any other parishoner that is upset with the person ("Joe", for example) then Joe will be instantly cut off from the Church, his friends in Scientology, and from any further Church counseling or training. It is no light matter to issue one of these on someone. It, basically, puts them at very high risk of "excommunication"on anyone's whim.

b)cut all of my communication lines to my artist friends that were in the C. of S. in Paris and ensure that she would use her position as President of the C. of S. Celebrity Centre to make the friendships cease until I would comply with her orders to me.

c) that she would use her C. of S, position to have removed any status I had within the C. of S., particularly as a person who had "O.T."

status (O.T. means "operating thetan", where thetan refers to the spiritual being or "soul" of the person). I had worked since 1973 to attain this state within the C. of S.» and I was proud of my efforts, persistence and result I had achieved. Sarit Rosenberg was threatening to have all of this "cancelled" if I did not bow down to her wishes for me to stop helping artists by my writings and artists association.

I did not comply to her angry ranting, and had no intention of bowing down to her threats.

I left the building and went home to write up a report to the C. of S.

management on her behavior. For me it was totally unacceptable that the Church of Scientology would interfere in my profession and my artistic purposes by threat and "blackmail" of a spiritual nature. The next day it was all written up and sent to Los Angeles with the facts.

I never went back to the Celebrity Centre since then,for any training or events.

I continued my work at home in the meantime, including helping out as a leader in the Paris office of "W.I.S.E." (WORLD INSTITUTE OF SCIENTOLOGY ENTERPRISES). I had paid several thousand dollars for a franchise to help Scientology businessmen do better in life. I was the "Charter Committee" leader, as I wanted to be useful to the group.

At this time my career was going normally, I was still maintaining a sales percent of paintings sold of over 95%. I had minimal credit or debt.

In April 1991 Sarit Rosenberg went to the Freewinds ship. Apparently, while she was there she criticized me strongly to the staff member who was in charge of "parishoner" ethics. I suspect that she gave this person (Christine Mc. Nocher) a false impression of me of a very negative nature. Also, Mr. Alain Franck Rosenberg went at a different moment in April 1991 to the Freewinds. I learned later from Miss McNocher that while he was there he had been "briefed" by the Senior Case Supervisor, Mrs Margaret Supak, on the contents of my auditing/ethics folders, which was a highly personal confessional write-up I had volunteered under confidence in what I considered to be a sacred trust. It is a severe violation to betray this trust as then any person can become subject to abuse or even blackmail by the unauthorized revealing of their private confessional actions. Mr.

Rosenberg, apparently, told Sarit Rosenberg about this confessional content. During this time I was waiting for a reply to my report from the Religious Technology Centre on the threats I had met with from the C. of S. executive in Paris.

Shortly after the visit of the Rosenbergs to the Freewinds ship Miss Me Nocher issued an official document, with broad issue world-wide to Scientologists, that I was no longer to be considered an "O.T.", or even a Pre"O.T" (someone doing grades lower than actual "O.T.". This was issued from the Freewinds ship on 2 May 1991.

The publication also said that I had been "found guilty" of various crimes and high crimes against church policies (without any on-policy "Justice" action to stand behind these accusations). It also stated that, in order to regain the status I had paid for, worked through and completed I would have to complete an extensive program written for me by Margaret Supak. It also issued an official threat that if I did not perform the actions required that I might be cut off from Scientology (declared as a "suppressive person").

Remember that all this comes from the fact that I wanted to help other artists! When I later asked Miss Me Nocher why this had been written she said it was because of things I had written in my volunteered confessional write-up on what was occurring in my private love-life (yes, "gay" activity in Paris after OT8). It is specifically forbidden in the C.of S. policies to write an ethics order on this subject, yet here was one officially issued after my confidence and privacy had been violated by Mrs. Supak. My personal life is a matter of private concern, and I had turned to the Church of Scientology in 1973 to get help specifically on some aspects of this. I recently learned that the exact procedures that would have helped me on this were never given to me, even after 23 years and thousands of hours purchased for auditing at various organizations of the C. of S. I also recently learned that the C. of S. has issued a confidential (but general content revealed to me by friends) publication where it is found that the previous level of spiritual counselling (O.T.7) was delivered defectively, and that this may have created severe difficulties for "parishoners" who had previously paid for, done and completed this Scientology level, such as myself.

AS OF 1997;NOTE{Currently, all persons having experienced this defective level of training and auditing are called back to Clearwater to pay for and re-do this level at their own expense. Even though I have experienced this level of Scientology I have been denied access to the publication at the Flag Land Base in Clearwater.

To continue on the history of what occurred in 1991; the program written by Mrs Supak required me to do an extensive "amends project"for the C. of S. and to do other technical items of C. of S.

services. It also threatened that if I did not comply with all of these points, as well as having "a flawless Ethics record" (a thing virtually impossible to attain in the realities of the everyday world, as any Scientologist will confirm who works outside the Church) that I would be instantly cut off from Scientology, my friends and aquaintances in the C. of S. This document was issued by the Flag Ship Service Organization on May 30 1991.

In May 1991 I was still in Paris waiting for a reply to my report on the threats. None-came.

Unknown to me at the time (April and May 1991) Sarit Rosenberg had gone to the effort of having some of her other staff members (Claude Tizioli, Marie-Yvonne Leclerc and Philippe Coriou) write ethics violation reports on me, even though they had no personal knowledge of what had transpired as they had not been present at the meeting between myself and Sarit Rosenberg. These reports were sent to the Freewinds ethics office, all containing erroneous and negatively alarming falsehoods on me. No copies were sent to me so I did not know of their existence until it was "too late". These could have been corrected by policy applications if I had known about them. It appears that the fact of not sending me any copies was part of Mrs.

Rosenberg's plan to get me thoroughly discredited within the C. of S.

******************************************* ******************************************* I will save comments on what I learned during this "attack" phase from the C. of S. until I have posted all its sections.

From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) 10 Michael Pattinson's experiences with Scientology Part 10
Date: 30 Aug 2003 20:35:08 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308301935.7c2593e2@posting.google.com>

part 10.

I only learned about the existence of these false reports from a friend in Copenhagen who had seen copies of them sent on internal C.of S. lines (Daniele Lattanzi).

On May 8 1991 I went to the Paris Celebrity Centre to obtain copies of the reports, and, after much persuasion, I obtained them. I wrote immediate requests for correction. No corrections were ever granted, even up to today.

In May 1991 Sarit Rosenberg used her position as President of the Celebrity Centre to have issued the "Non Enturbulation Order" she had threatened me with on April 9th. I had not even been in the Celebrity Centre since then except to obtain the report copies. I had not been there to upset anyone. It was merely a continuation of her (and OSA Paris) personal vendetta against me using her official position in the Church of Scientology as a weapon. In the order Sarit had me "removed"

from my franchise position with "W.I.S.E." with no authority to do so, and I thereby lost all the money I paid in for the Charter Committee franchise ($6,000.00) The ethics orders were made public, discrediting my name and reputation falsely and were left posted on the public notice board for months.

More false reports on supposed bad actions I was supposed to have undertaken (all erroneous and based in opinions rather than any facts) were written by staff of Celebrity Centre Paris in May 1991.

All of the things I write here are fully documented. They were also included in "discovery" in the Pattinson case in Los Angeles.

Towards the end of May 1991 Sarit started to use the Church of Scientology Celebrity Centre Paris to wage a "Black P.R. campaign"

against both my professional career and my personal reputation. She used her position to interfere actively with my artists association by forcing friends of mine to call me (under threat themselves from Sarit) to tell me that they had been ordered to "disconnect from me"

and that they were asking for the immediate refund of the subscription they had paid in to be a member of my association. They said they were happy to be members, but that Sarit had used her post to force them to ask for a refund under duress. I paid all these people back as they had requested,though it is no business of the Church of Scientology to do such actions as these. The persons concerned were; Noel Hamman, Xavier Deluc, Antoine Tome, Maryline Dupoux and Jacques Leservot.

It was through these people,and other friends of mine that were connected to the C.of S. Celebrity Centre Paris that I first heard back, on public, rumour and innuendo lines, the contents of my confessional actions, which were suposed to have been kept in the trust of the C.of S. It was being used to discredit me publicly, even though it had been volunteered as part of church so-called "priest-penitent procedures" and kept on those exact lines.

Suddenly, on May 25th 1991 I got a phone call from Miss McNocher, on the Freewinds ship saying that she had received more reports on me and that the Religious Technology Centre had become alarmed at the contents. She said, in no uncertain terms, that unless I arrived at the freewinds that weekend (she called Friday afternoon) I would be "declared S.P." (that is the Scientology "excommunication" from the group I had been threatened with earlier by Sarit Rosenberg).

Basically, I had to pay for a flight to Nassau, Bahamas, stay a time on the Freewinds ($1,500 per week at the time) and get there the day after next, abandon my work, and pay other costs all because Sarit Rosenberg had written lies about me. This, in addition to all the other actions taken against me by the C.of S. were too much, and I had what amounted to a nervous breakdown. I called my parents in England and told them about what was occurring.

They offered to send me the money they were just about to use for their summer vacation so I could go to the Freewinds and sort things out.

Things were getting crazy but they were about to get crazier. I was a Scientology O.T8 celebrity being treated as an "enemy" both for being gay and for forming an artists' association!

OSA's attacks on me, with cooperation of the Rosenbergs, as outlined in the DEPT OF SPECIAL AFFAIRS INVESTIGATOR FULL HAT CHECKSHEET I referred to in a previous posting were being enacted to try to destroy my whole existence but I did not know that at the time. I have only discovered that a few weeks ago (2003, summer).

I managed to arrive at the Freewinds on the Sunday morning. Miss McNocher asked me to write up all the facts that I had on the reports she had received and I spent two days doing that. I wrote the truth.

They went to Mrs Supak. The answer came back as the program I previously mentioned, plus an invalidation of all I had written up as reports,saying that they didn't believe a word I said. Why not?

"Because I was gay, therefore supposedly at "covert hostility" on Hubbard's Tone Scale of emotions and those people are liars etc...."

What they failed to observe was that writing reports is not a sexual activity (duh) and was not subject to that stupid attribute of "1.1"

(covert hostility). Hubbard hated gays as "1.1" and that hate had by then apparently spread to me through robotic staff members.

Sarit had already smashed my reputation on the Freewinds, apparently, in April. I asked for references from the Founder of Scientology, L.Ron Hubbard, to back up what was being done. Miss McNocher would not give me any. Instead, as a reaction against my protests against the incorrect "handlings"which were very "non-Scientology" (as there had been-no verification of facts in the reports before acting on them in my disfavor) Miss McNocher said that Margaret Supak had ordered a Committee of Evidence (Scientology's most severe justice committee) against me. Then she ordered me to go back home to Paris and come back to the Freewinds when the Committee was ready to sit and meet me. I requested to be faced with my accusers. This was never granted.

When I got home I wrote to Mr. David Miscavige, the Chairman of the Board of the Religious Technology Center in Los Angeles, to ask that the Committee be done in Europe where I could face my accusers and sort the matter out. I got no answer until too late. I was back on the Freewinds on June 25th when his letter arrived transferring the Committee of Evidence to Copenhagen, Denmark. So, I had paid for another trip to the Freewinds for nothing!

I was treated as some kind of "criminal" by the staff on the ship, and the trip was EXTREMELY unpleasant. As I had arrived on the Freewinds I was considered as a "public on board" and counted in the statistics. I was about to leave as I needed to go back to Europe for the Committee of Evidence. Miss Mc. Nocher called me into her office and informed me that I could not leave before purchasing 12.5 hours of auditing, ordered by Mrs Supak. This would cost $7,400. I told her that I absolutely could not afford this, as all the troubles with the church had cost me valuable production time and I had no money to pay for it.

This happened in Aruba island on June 26 1991. She said that my passport would be held back from me until I paid the money. I went to get my passport, as I refused to be held under such "extortion". I did not want to buy the auditing, and I did not have the money to pay for it. The passport officer on the Freewinds refused to give me my passport without the written consent of Mrs Supak, The only way to get off the ship was to go down to the banks in Aruba and use my credit cards and checks to get sufficient funds to pay the funds demanded. I was given the unwanted and unecessary auditing for just a couple of hours, on something in which I had no interest, and then I was allowed to leave. They had their $7,400 to count in the week's stats so I no longer was of interest. I was a very, very dissatisfied customer!! It was one of the worst moments of my life.

In August 1991, despite huge financial difficulties from the previous events, I went to Copenhagen, Denmark, for the Committee of Evidence.

It went well and promised to be favorable to me, but before it could be published it was cancelled by a church Amnesty in September 1991.

All the trouble and expense was for nothing.

Even though the Amnesty had, apparently, cleared my ethics file of anything I might have done in the past, in October 1991 the Paris Celebrity Centre resumed their attacks against me. I had started a new business with a Mr, Bruno Spinozzi. We had partnered in a greetings card business using my photography of roses and flowers.

We had just done our first trade show, with some beginning success, and were proceeding to expand the company by further investment. Mr.

Spinozzi was called in to the Paris Church of Scientology Celebrity Centre and was told that I was an "undesirable" un-Scientologist, and that he would have to "disconnect" from me or his future in Scientology would be at risk. He was fed false information (totally lies) until he had to give in to their demands. This was done in "HCO"

(the Hubbard Communications Office) in the C.of S. building, Rue Legendre, Paris. Bruno came to see me, saying that he was disgusted at the kind of person I was (from what he had been told at the church), and that he was stopping the business partnership he had with me, and that I should buy him out immediately. This effectively collapsed the business, even though I did make the arrangements to buy him out and let him go. I was then left with the stocks of product and nobody to sell them. This cost me a whole business. It was a deliberate attack on me by OSA.

As the Church's Paris Celebrity Centre was continuing to try to destroy my life, reputation, my business and my friendships, I wrote a request to the Los Angeles Headquarters to request a Comittee of Evidence to clear my name. This request was made in October 1991.

The Committee was held in Copenhagen in May 1992.

By October 1992 there was still no news of any findings or recommendations by the Committee.After some energetic faxing and writing to Los Angeles the results eventually came out in November 1992. I was found to be not guilty of any of the charges made against me.

All copies (all of them) were sent to Celebrity Centre Paris for distribution and posting on the public notice board. They trashed every copy so no one could find out that my name had been cleared. I did not even receive a copy myself. I had to find out what the result of my Committee of Evidence was by calling a friend in Los Angeles, have him travel to the Justice Office of the Church, get the only remaining copy and fax me its contents! The results cleared my name of the false accusations, but did nothing to repair the damage from costs incurred in doing so. By this time, and since then it has cost me well over a hundred thousand dollars to clear my name of the falsehoods circulated about me by the C.of S. Paris Celebrity Centre and OSA Paris.

I was still fighting to get justice served and get back my OT8 status and good standing. I don't give up easily. When I came to the Flag Land Base in Clearwater for auditing services in 1993 I had to spend several thousand dollars on new confessional procedures to see if I "had done bad things to the Paris Celebrity Centre". There was not much at all on that, but it wasted my counselling time that I had bought for not much result at all.

As part of my own personal investigations of what was behind the attacks from the Paris church I had discovered many other persons (a list of 40, minimum) that had received lesser, but similarly disturbing treatment by OSA and this couple (the Rosenbergs) without ever getting proper repair or correction. I reported this directly to the C.of S. International Management in June 1993. This was on the Freewinds ship. On that same trip I was appointed an "O.T. Ambassador"

for the C.of S. by the Executive Director International, Guillaume Lesevre.

At the end of that trip, as an O.T. Ambassador, I was given, by the new ethics staff member on the Freewinds, Sharon Straas, a public issue Scientology administrative document concerning the ethics lapses of Mr, Rosenberg, and that a Committee of Evidence had been called on him to look at his wrong use of L.Ron Hubbard's technology in the running of the Paris Celebrity Centre. As I had just been appointed as the only O.T. Ambassador" for France, with the job of seeing to correct uses of the technologies in Paris I felt I should assist in the full application of the Committee of Evidence on Mr. Rosenberg. In order to ensure that the most data could be obtained from anyone who may have known something about the matter, so all factors could be taken into account I distributed 21 copies of the document (it had no distribution limitations on it) to other O.T.8s in Paris plus a couple of people who had information to give about it.

What I did not know, however, as I did not visit the Celebrity Centre, was that Mr. Rosenberg had kept the fact that he was called to a Committee of Evidence in Los Angeles a secret from the church group there in Paris. He had said to the staff that he was going to Los Angeles for "a brief administrative correction" only. The lid was blown off this lie by my sending out copies to selected individuals.

What the response was is worthy of note,

*************************************** *************************************** Comments saved till end of MPES 11.

From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) 11 Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part 11
Date: 30 Aug 2003 22:02:06 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308302102.51b95cfd@posting.google.com>

(MPES) 11

Mr. Rosenberg, and staff that he gave orders to, apparently, wrote ethics violation reports on me to the Freewinds to discredit me once more (same tactic as before) with no copies to me. I was called by Sharon Straas on the Freewinds who was ordering me back there (same tactic as before), and saying that I could not see any copies of the reports unless I arrived at the ship. This is contrary to Mr.

Hubbard's writings on the matter, so I refused to go. I queried the order in place of complying. No copies were sent to me.

Sharon suddenly cancelled my "O.T. Ambassador" status, without any correct Hubbard policy procedures. I was also denied training at the Paris main Organization where I was on a course at the time. I had high statistics on course, showing good study production, but I was denied training anyway. Sharon also RE-issued the old unjust and false documents of 1991 that had already been cancelled officially in my Committee of Evidence.This cancelled all my previous expensive efforts to get justice done!

In addition, as a "retaliation" Mr. Rosenberg apparently ordered his new ethics staff member to call in all my friends and give them a "briefing" on how I had "stolen" the document from the Freewinds (a lie), about how I should not be associated-with due to my bad character (another lie), and showing my friends the re-issued false documents from the Freewinds as "proof". The Paris Church of Scientology Celebrity Centre then called my business associates in Italy (Mr. and Mrs. Le Mardele) to tell them these lies, stir up trouble and try to get them to stop doing any business with me. They also asked (per Mrs. Le Mardele) if she had any "dirt" about Michael Pattinson that they could use against me in Paris.

Does this organization still look like a "church" to anyone reading this?

The friends who received this "special briefing" at the Celebrity Centre were then asked to write ethics violation reports on me on the basis of what they had been told in the "briefing", so these could be sent to the Freewinds to really cause trouble for me in the C.of S. I asked for copies of these reports from the person doing these actions (Olivia Pilo) but my request was refused, which is contrary to Hubbard writings. I was, yes still, in good standing with the Church of Scientology, yet the church in Paris was actively seeking to destroy my good name and repute. This was in summer of 1993.

The cost in terms of money, stress and pain and suffering (mentally, emotionally, socially and financially) were enormous! The malpractice of even basic Scientology by the Paris Celebrity Centre was vast and highly damaging.

These OSA-related attacks were orchestrated to ruin my life totally.

Due to the overwhelming expenses incurred, the time and effort needed just to "stay alive" within Scientology, I was unable to pay my rent in Paris, and other debts incurred (well over a hundred thousand dollars) were not able to be repaid under those circumstances, even though I really wanted to. I had a debt to a Mr Michel Reveillere who had lent me about $26,000. I had already paid back about $6,000 but then the attacks ruined my income and production so much that I could not pay back more. This is the debt that "religious freedom watch" on the internet now claims I "refused to pay back"...more lies.

It was so hostile in Paris, due to the C.of S. attacks on me that I had to move out (I lost everything I had there that I had earned and my furniture, credit and friends). I decided to move to Mexico City to get away from the french C.of S.' hostility and attacks.

It was very very hard to get back on my feet again as I had no money, no home, no way of earning a living in Mexico at first. It was a lesson in facing total poverty in a new country. With a little and timely help from a few good friends in Mexico I started my career again from scratch, and earned enough to remain alive, but not much more.

In December 1993, in the relative safety of Mexico I wrote a request to the C.of S. for a Board of Review to correct matters. No response.

New request written in March 1994. No result.

With the main purpose of getting a full resolution of this matter I came to Clearwater, Florida. The Flag Land Base, I thought, would be a good place to get things solved and squared away. I had seen that "standard tech and policy is infallible" since 1973, so was determined to get it applied at the "Mecca of Technical Perfection" to a full resolution. I was simply unaware of the covert but concerted OSA attack on me and that I was asking those who were attacking me to help me as their friend. I was, after all, a loyal member since 1973, and an OT8! They were, in fact, my biggest enemies, by their own decisions and behaviors.

I was naive and brainwashed to the point of trusting in my attackers to turn their wrath away from me. Such is the cult's indoctrination.

Arnie Lerma refers to this as Scientology's "black box" and he is right. A Scientologist has no windows to light up the darkness of the cult's false propaganda. If many of those still, today, who are in Scientology ever got to know what I have found out they would collapse with the shock of being so manipulated and betrayed.

In July 1996 I got a result from a Board of Review done by the Religious Technology Centre. It cancelled the main false issues mentioned in this write-up. It stated that there had been injustice.

It did not get seen, however, by more than a handful of people. It, specially, did not get sent, in French, to the friends of mine in Paris that would have needed to see what it said.

Mr and Mrs Rosenberg had been at the Flag Land Base for many months in 1996, yet no part of this was resolved with them. My requests for financial restitution have met with indifference. The total cost in terms of cash outlay, debts incurred, loss of income over 6 years, and the pain and suffering (mental) are now a very large amount in my estimation. I estimate the cost of fighting the injustice, alone, to be around $130,000.00 U.S.

As if the above was not already sufficient, there are some other events that took place at the Flag Land Base in 1996.

On June 19 1996, as part of a "handling", I was forcibly kept in a room at the Sandcastle, the office of Mr Hy Levy, and I was not permitted to leave despite my asking to on several occasions. I was being held there against my will and being forced to pay $7,400 for more counselling that I did not want. After all that had already occurred since 1991 I was at the absolute end of my tether, and I became very very upset indeed. I was panicked at being held in that small office and being forced to give over money I didn't have or being forced to borrow it at their suggestion. They insisted that I either use a credit card to pay and be released, or that I call my Mexican friend (Mrs. Maya) to get her to lend me the money. I tried to leave but both Mr Levy and Mrs "Cosima" blocked my exit through the door into the reception area in the Sandcastle (C.of S.) Hotel. I cried out for help, but nobody responded. They sat me down again and resumed their demands for moneys, even forcibly invalidating my integrity, my desire to get out of there and the fact that I did NOT want the auditing.

As a note: In all of this trying to get correction of the injustices, etc, the attitude of the C.of S. staff has been only that "all is my fault", and that there must be something wrong with me to have such things occur. This continued at this time(19 June 1996).

Anyway, the demands and the being held against my will continued for almost an hour. In the end I managed to trick them by going for one door, which they blocked, and rushing out of the opposite door and up onto Osceola Avenue.

Both Cosima and Hy Levy chased me, running as far as my car when they could no longer hold onto me as I drove off.

I was ashamed at getting upset, but I do not feel that this is O.K. to hold someone, demand money in order to be released, specially in the U.S.A.

One big mistake I made in this incident (apart from being a Scientologist at all) was to write two faxes "apologising for my upset" and covering for Hy and Cosima. I should not have tried to cover for their actions to save them from discipline.

During my visits to the Flag Land Base in Clearwater my contact had been Mary Voegeding, the President of the Flag Service Organization (now, as I later learned, married to OSA Clearwater director, Ben Shaw!).

Later in 1996 she introduced me to Danny Keogh, the ex husband of Lisa-Marie Presley. As both were at the Flag Land Base, and Danny was doing some amends for the church, apparently. Mary got Danny to help me with some ethics handlings (as usual, with the foregone conclusion that I "must have done something to deserve everything that had happened to me that was bad"}. This was not a good basis of operation, specially in the light of the facts outlined in this report. Things were going well for a short time, as I managed to get things on track with Danny's help.

Then, however, things went extremely wrong, as suddenly I was directed to go to see a person (a very senior "Security Officer" from the Religious Technology Centre called Mr. Marty Rathbun). I was escorted into a tiny room behind the Fort Harrison elevators area where The Religious Technology Centre has an office. I was sat down with Mr Rathbun between me and the door. He instructed me to pick up the E-Meter electrodes and to answer his questions. It was not a counselling session, but a "security interview" with no obvious rules of conduct except that I had to answer his questions fully, and that if I didn't do so he would know because of what was occurring on the E-Meter. What then occurred, in this interrogation and another shortly thereafter was the greatest shock of my life.

To give a brief description, Mr Rathbun questioned me about my religious beliefs very intensely. He had heard from Danny that I had become interested in a religious kind of activity (a Christian-related spiritual activity designed to show me more clearly who "I am"....remember the OT8 result?) and that I was enjoying it so much that I was speaking to my friends about it, and some of them were becoming interested in reading about it. They loved it! I had even gotten a few copies of its literature into a local (non-C.of S.)

bookstore.

According to Mr, Rathbun, however, I was committing a rather big crime of some kind by speaking about my religious beliefs or faith to other Scientologists. I was not, in fact, proselytizing as I was not trying to take anyone out of Scientology.

I was given to understand, indirectly but always in the same tone and direction of attention, that if I ever wanted to continue my route in Scientology, I would have to not only stop speaking about my chosen faith, but also that it would be necessary for me to give up that faith forever. I asked at least five times for the Hubbard reference which might dictate that, but Mr Rathbun would never answer the question directly. He would only hedge around it and make me feel "stupid" for not immediately complying to his own point of view.

In the end I had him describe what his viewpoint was that I was supposed to be so obediently complying with. He showed me the Hubbard reference "Keeping Scientology Working". There is a point there where ten actions are dictated to keep Scientology working. One of them is; "Getting the correct technolgy applied consists of .. hammering out of existence incorrect technology".

This was the only major reference he was working on to get me to give up my chosen faith. I pursued the matter with him, as I could not believe what he was intending. He certainly intended for me to give up my religious beliefs in order to continue in Scientology (RTC holds the clearances for those wanting to do further services, and can block anyone's progress at will). He intended to stop anyone else reading about the things I had read about. This was evidenced by the fact that, in the days following these "interviews" two personal visits from RTC and one from the C.of S "Special Affairs Office" bullied the local bookstore owner (Mr Virgil Wilhite) to stop carrying the books I had requested.

He did not want to stop carrying them, as they are from a bona fide religious activity recognized by the U.S. Congress. However, enough pressure was brought to bear to intimidate him into sending the books back to the supplier.

This was a direct attack by both the C.of S. and the. Religious Technology Centre on another U.S. religion. These days they use "religious intolerance"

as a slander of others while they are the ones most guilty of it.

In the "interviews" I pressed the point of having religious freedom as a Scientologist (both from Hubbard's writings and from the 1st Amendment of the U.S. Constitution) but Mr. Rathbun would have nothing of it. I asked him specifically whether the Shinto religion people (who had recently visited Flag as a group) would also have to give up their faith before RTC would allow them to continue in Scientology at some point. His response was that "it is not yet a problem"(or a question to be resolved), but his answer was that, indeed, anyone wanting to continue in Scientology would,at some point, to satisfy RTC on the point of "incorrect technology" have to abandon their religious faith and practice.

In Scientology NOTHING BUT HUBBARD IS EITHER TOLERABLE OR PERMITTED AS A BASIS FOR LIFE. If Scientology gets its way it would be the ONLY remaining "religion", and it is even fake in being that as it excludes God from daily life. Hubbard is Scientology's only God-like worshipped figurehead.

Mr Rathbun is a high official in the Religious Technology Center, and he has authority over many Scientologists. I had hoped that I had misunderstood his exact point, so I pressed the matter home until there could be no more doubt. So, the intention of the Religious Technology Center, according to Mr Rathbun, is to systematically wipe out every other religion on this planet, follower by follower, by first getting them into Scientology without any hassle, let them get to a point of needing RTC approval before getting any more (higher level) counselling or training, and then telling them that they either give up their Faith or stop any further progress in Scientology. That was the message that he had to get over to me. The fact that the books were removed from a non-C.of S. bookstore by RTC and C. of S. is a valid indicator of this as a very small example of a big problem.

I wonder how many religious leaders world-wide know of this Intention to wipe out their Faiths?

I was so upset with this shocking attitude that I went home and ripped to pieces the photo of Hubbard I had on the wall. Next day I drove to Orlando just to get away from Clearwater and Flag land Base. When I returned I found Mary Voegeding, President of Flag Servics Org and Danny Keough inside my apartment building. They had gained access by sneaking in through a side door and past another security door. I did not invite the up to my apartment as they were not welcome. I spoke to them for a while in the lobby area and then asked them to leave.

They merely wanted to make sure I would not cause a local public relations "flap".

They were not interested in my well-being.

That last sentence would sum up all my experiences with Scientology.

By the end of 1996 I was on my way out, but not fully out, of Scientology and a year later I was fully OUT.

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SOME OF WHAT I LEARNED AND SAW LATER WITH HINDSIGHT (PARTIAL LIST)

1. SCIENTOLOGY IS INTERESTED IN ITS OWN SURVIVAL AT ANY COST.

INDIVIDUALS MAY ALWAYS BE SACRIFICED, EVEN WHEN FRIENDS, IF A PERCEIVED THREAT ARISES THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THEM.

2. OSA (DEPT 20 OF THE "CHURCH" OF SCIENTOLOGY) IS A WAR DEPARTMENT WITH HARMFUL AND TERRORISTIC TYPES OF ACTIVITIES, OPERATING COVERTLY AND OVERTLY AGAINST GROUPS AND INDIVIDUALS IN LANDS WHICH ARE AT PEACE,INCLUDING THE U.S.A., WITH FUNDING FROM THE "CHURCH" OF SCIENTOLOGY TO FANATICALLY FURTHER ITS AGENDAS AND DESTROY ANY AND ALL WHO MAY SLOW ITS PROGRESS.

3. THE TRUST I HAD PLACED IN SCIENTOLOGY WAS NOT MERITED.

4. THE REAL PERSONALITY OF THE GROUP IS THE OPPOSITE OF ITS STATED GOALS. IT CLAIMS TO WANT TO ELIMINATE WAR, CRIMINALITY, HATE AND INSANITY YET USES THESE THINGS ON A DAILY BASIS.

To give an analogy of this, it is as if Saddam Hussein says "I will only kill, oppress, murder, rob and torture people till I have no more ememies then I will turn around and be loving and kind to everyone".

Just as one cannot get any sunshine out from deep within a cave, so one can not get peace, love, sanity or honesty from out the dark heart of Scientology.

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From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) 12 Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part 12.
Date: 31 Aug 2003 18:19:56 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308311719.2e82bcff@posting.google.com>

(MPES) 12.

(NOTE: Though I knew Lisa Mc Pherson in 1995 and was a good friend of hers I have excluded her and her employers from this posting till the trial is over, as I am a witness in the case involving her death at Flag.).

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After the incident with Marty Rathbun I was put on a program to study ALL of LRHs writings about God, "Supreme Being", infinity... I was assisted by a staff member and we went through all of it in a very short time. There is such sparse Hubbard writing on God that it was not a long job. It amounted to a few short pages in total out of the huge Hubbard volumes and volumes of "Tech". He says almost nothing about God, as his focus was the "technology" and he was claiming himself as "Source". One of the greatest Hubbard revelations, seriously, about God, or the Infinite is that "the number 8, turned on its side, is the infinity symbol! Wow!!!! It simply confirmed to me that Scientology was NOT going to help me finding out "who I am"! The only beingness that was, apparently, permissible as a Scientologist was "slave to L.Ron Hubbard and Int. Management."

From December 1996 to May 1997 I stayed in Clearwater, Florida and did the best I could at coming to terms with what was happening. I still did not realize that "Standard LRH Tech" would not only fail to solve the injustices and hardships I had been through since finishing OT8 but was the REASON for them! When I saw the OSA checksheet posted so recently by Caroline Letkeman I suddenly saw the missing piece of the puzzle.

I had been targetted for obliteration in 1991 and later by the standard LRH tech of OSA! This was the LRH tech of warfare. For me, I truly feel that this is tantamount to attempted murder.

I was being "handled" still, but on a less frequent basis by Mary Voegeding, who was also dealing with the celebrity visitors to Flag Land Base like Kirstie Alley, Lisa Marie Presley, etc. Mary had said she would try to get a resolution of the problems I was having, but no result came. It turns out that she really only wanted to get data on how I was doing to see if I would be a public relations or legal threat. She later married Ben Shaw, head of OSA Clearwater. I had been wrong to trust her.

I was studying books I preferred to read (non-Scientology books) and was enjoying a very refreshing atmosphere away from the level of group contact I had had before the Rathbun "de-programming" attempt. I grew increasingly distant from Flag, from other Scientologists and from Mary Voegeding. In spring of 1997 I was watching a video of a recent Flag event in her office and realised that the spell was broken. Mr.

Miscavige was no longer any kind of icon, idol or even impressive at his PR for me. He was making me want to throw up in disgust. I had written to him and asked him to resolve the whole injustice mess, but his reply was, basically, that he would not be disciplining any staff members on my account. From then on he was "gone" as a leader as far as I was concerned.

The last phone converstation I had with Mary Voegeding was in spring 1997 when she wanted me to come in for a "handling" on a failed ethics cycle (I was getting thoroughly sick of being blamed for the crimes and errors of staff memebers who were brainwashed into stupidity) and I refused. She then said to me that the recent "write-up" I had done as part of the ethics cycle "just might come out publicly". It was a form of blackmail, pure and simple. I hung up and decided to have nothing more to do with her. I just could NOT understand the anomalies I had been subjected to; nothing made sense in the light of the "internal" Scientology data and experiences I had had. It was dismaying.

I decided to take my life back into my own hands. I looked at my options and made some decisions, which, in retrospect, were excellent decisions. I decided to go to the Clearwater Police Department and file a complaint. I was well received, questioned for some hours (all recorded) and felt better. A few days later 2 police officers came to see me at my house to finish the questioning and complete thier report. When they were leaving my apartment I said; "you have left something of yours on the couch"....a thick document. They just said, oh, that's not ours, it is yours...." Mystified, I went to see what it was, and it was a pile of photocopies of Bent Corydon's book "Bare-Faced Messiah". I thank them sincerely to this day for that!

THANK YOU!! I read the whole book within 2 days! It was AMAZING. It answered so many questions I had had, and many more Scientology anomalies made sanse!! I had been denied vital information on a HUGE scale while a Scientologist. I loved the book, loved the relief from the LIES I had been told while an active member and mentally thanked Bent Corydon (who I had known personally) from the bottom of my heart.

Clearwater was no longer a place of welcome for me with all the injustice, mess and confusion that the cult had thrust into my life. I wanted a nicer environment, so arranged to move to California. Los Angeles is where I wanted to be to further my career. I still maintained contact with some friends in Scientology and was still "hopeful" of some kind of resolution. I moved to Los Angeles in June of 1997. (P.S. no criminal case was enacted on my account in the end by the police department, mostly due to my mistake of covering for Hy and Cosima in my faxes).

I put my stuff in storage and stayed at a friend of a Florida friend's house (in a very tiny room) for a few months. We got along very well as she was a non-Scientologist and very friendly to me; a very nice lady. I was "amazed" that a "wog" could be actually doing well in life. That may seem really either funny or condescending, but it is true. In Scientology we were constantly taught that anyone NOT using Hubbard tech was doomed to failure and oblivion, so were virtually valueless as people unless they became Scientologists. it was one of many "eye-openers" I was to get.

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1. Scientology did not care if I lived or died. When I stopped paying in money due to the financial chaos caused by OSA I was from that point a "non-entity" for staff gross income statistics. I was also asking for help, but not paying, so became a "nuisance".

I was also writing negative reports about staff members who WERE STILL BRINGING IN MONIES so became a pariah. I was still actively gay after OT8, so became a huge and unwanted embarassment.

2. I was targetted for obliteration by OSA.

3. The Police were a refuge from the chaos of the cult.

4. The books written by ex-members like Bent Corydon's "Bare-Faced Messiah", Jon Atack's "A Piece of Blue Sky" (superb!!), and the book;

"L.Ron Hubbard: Messiah or Madman?" are very therapeutic for a member who is leaving the clutches of the cult. I enjoyed them immensely for the truths they give out to blast away the lies of OSA.

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From: karethian@msn.com (michael pattinson)
Subject: (MPES) CONCLUSION Michael Pattinson's Experiences with Scientology. Part13.
Date: 31 Aug 2003 22:08:41 -0700
Message-ID: <22c1ffd4.0308312108.1c664d1b@posting.google.com>

(MPES) CONCLUSION

This is the final posting in this series of "My Story" from a new Scientologist to New OT8 and the out of Scientology, and more. Thanks to all of you who were sufficiently interested to learn about it all.

It was "hell" on earth to submit to the cult's indoctrination, Fair Game tactics and heartlessness. It has certainly taught me to avoid the "cult" mentality and form of organization in the future. I still have a strong desire to be of service, in my own way now, though, and I want to help mankind do better and better, but in my own way and using my own inspirations and talents. I am now closer to God than ever before, and Life is my true friend. I have gained a lot of love, insight, depth of soul and freedom from reading and practising non-cult spiritual or "New Age"/Inspirational books and got more from them, by FAR than anything I ever got from Scientology.

For people who decide to finally leave Scientology...bravo!

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In 1998 I was living in Long Beach and reading a.r.s. (newsgroup alt.religion.scientology) and seeing how many more than just myself had been harmed, killed, scammed and betrayed by Scientology's core management and founder. I made inquiries about a possible court case against them for what I had been put through. Frank Oliver put me in touch with Graham Berry, a lawywer from Santa Monica, of New Zealand origin.

I had barely even MET Graham before friends of mine, in Paris were already being called in to "disconnect" from me! Helena Hamer and Michel Cambray were just two examples; fascinating that the mere approach to litigation with Graham Berry drove OSA wild. I consulted with him and we agreed to file a lawsuit. I had a good job creating art for a major gallery chain in Tokyo, Beverly Hills, Paris and London. My income was sufficient to finance the lawsuit, so we thought. I wanted to get full, reasonable and merited compensation for all the abuses and frauds I wrote about in (MPES) 1-12.

I left all details and strategies to Graham, as I knew virtually nothing of litigation or such matters. He did his filing of the case in May 1998 in Los Angeles. Far from following normal litigation procedures and trying to win the case as defendants the OSA litigation mob and its clients used many Hubbard war tactics instead while pretending to follow the due process of the Courts.

To summarize, as I understand it from hindsight; (more may be added later)

1. In 1998 all 3 of Graham's partners in his law firm left precipitously (in a hurry) and had, apparently, been contacted by OSA beforehand. They left on bad terms and lied to me, their client, about matters of some importance before doing so. It was very suspicious as a way of "doing business". It seemed to me that they had either been threatened or blackmailed from the manner in which they left so hurriedly.

2. The cult's lawyers then used the overwhelm of working alone to bury Graham under avalanches of litigation overload. This was a very heavy flow of demands for huge numbers of items, all of which would use up enormous amounts of time and money. This was used as a continuing tactic all the way through.

3. The lawyers for the cult defendants were constantly using personal character assassination attacks against Graham in very many filings.

4. The litigation cult lawyers did many other things (that have been included in requests for criminal complaints against Scientology sent to John Ashcroft) that were simply "Fair Game" personal attacks in both my, and Graham's, personal life and contacts. This involved, but was not limited to, some phone tapping, surveillance, private investigators, neighborhood disinformation tactics, alienation of staff and support or friends, cutting off of credit, income, assistance and counter-lawsuits which were frivolous. It also involved terror tactics (to scare her away from being my friend and supporter) and lies 9about the reality of my case in the Court) against a dear friend of mine, done by Eugene Ingram, a fired L.A. bad cop who does dirty work for Scientology.

5. By some tactic I do not know about, the cult lawyers got the judge to instruct that our "discovery" (giving of all my personal documents, depositions, financial records, personal letters, reports etc..)

should be 100% complete before the cult defendents should give us anything at all! I gave all I had, they gave zero! I was not the one on trial, but they reversed the process. It seemed like a travesty of justice to me, but I am not trained in that field.

6. Graham Berry was also targetted, atacked personally over and over again and bankrupted by OSA. They then vehemently OPPOSED his bankruptcy proceedings to stick him in it for years. His efforts to represent me were destroyed. He had other issues than mine with OSA, from past litigation, but when he represented me he was crushed till he could go no further.

As far as I was concerned, the cult's litigation gang filed a lawsuit against me for non-repayment of a loan I had received from a public Scientologist (Michel Reveillere). Michael had lent me about $26,000 back in 1990-91. I had paid him back about $6,000 before OSA smashed all my income sources in France by 1992-93. I could no longer pay Michel back, but it was no "refusal". So, they accused me of defaulting on the loan. I had to give 2 days deposition, and had to give my employer's name and address as part of the proceedings.

Suddenly, less than 10 days later I was "fired" by the gallery! I had a 100% sales record with them just prior, so the chances of that being "Fair Game " was very high indeed. In the Reveillere lawsuit scientology asked for a summary judgement, and it was granted by the judge. I didn't even have a chance to defend myself properly. Michel Reveillere was "awarded" $64,000.00 as loan plus compound interest. I could not pay it as I had lost my job, so was forced to declare bankruptcy. By 2000 I had to dismiss the case against Scientology, not because it had no merit, as it had tons of merit and the cult knew it.

I had to dismiss it because I had no more funding. By that time I had lost my home, my bank acount, credit, job, career as an artist, clients and case, pretty much all due to "Fair Game" tactics. Not only was the playing field not level, it was like a cliff face with Scientology's lawyers standing on a mountain of defrauded monies throwing heavy objects down on us below. They did not want to litigate the case as they knew they would lose it heavily; so they decided to destroy the plaintiff and his lawyer's personal lives to "win".

This is an interesting aspect; When I accepted the loan from Michel Reveillere he was a "public" scientologist in Paris. Later in the 1990s he joined staff in.....OSA! Scientology used this fact of him being a staff member of theirs to get him to file a lawsuit against me in the USA to get a huge money judgement and bankrupt me. The matter of personal debts in Scientololgy is very widespread. With weekly demands for monies from memebers it is a frequent practice to borrow from all over, and many go beyond what they can truly pay back. There were probably thousands of Scientologists who had personal debts outstanding, and many who were probably refusing to repay them. The cult's litigation mob was not taking up all those thousands of outstanding loans and filing lawsuits there. No, just mine, and were paying all Michel's legal costs from church funds, even though it was a PERSONAL loan. In addition, it was Michel's very own department (OSA) that had crashed my businesses in France! They were the ones who had PREVENTED Michel from getting paid back! I was already doing so at the time.

I had to go through about 9 days of deposition in the case I filed, all on video, with a battery of highly paid cult lawyers and assistants, some of whom bullbaited during the proceedings till I shut them up. It was a tough but interesting experience as I saw first hand how lawyers have gotten such an awful reputation for being dishonest, shifty, sly, cruel, devious and unjust.

I could observe also, first hand, how the US Justice system only allows the wealthy to get justice in fact. If you don't have enough money you can not fubd the proceedings and, like in american elections, the one with the most money wins. This may seem delicious and rewarding to the greedy soul-less lawyers who have sold their integrity for a bucket of bucks, but it is a recipe for social disaster in the long run. even the smartest lawyer can not change the laws of karma. As they have sown so shall they reap, and this applies equally to the cult's lawyers as well as their criminal cult fraudster clients. SO BE IT.

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