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Anyway I just wanted to let you know that after many years of being tortured for being gay by Scientology I realized just how evil they are and ran screaming from them. Literally I am not kidding as several Sea Org members were chasing me at the time as I was being held against my will in XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX while they were trying manipulate me into staying. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

Anyway I spent the next X years in a quasi-suicidal funk as I found myself without a belief system and no thoughts or values that did not come from or had been altered by Scientology. I also found my relationships with all my family in ruins and had no friends as I had disconnected from, or recruited them all into the Church.

There is no feeling of betrayal like the one from an organization that makes you believe they hold the keys to all of eternity. This was combined with guilt that somehow being gay was my fault and I was weak for not being able to stay in the Church where I would be "fixed." I badly needed help but held on to the belief that Psychology was harmful and that I would just make it all worse. I have never had such a dark point in my life. Major depression followed.

Finally I decided to give in and go talk to a Psychologist, as I knew if I did not I would just end up killing myself. He referred me to a Psychiatrist who placed me on Zoloft that I almost did not take thanks to imbedded Scientology Dogma. Finally I decided to take it and six weeks later I began to feel much better. I have spent the last few years in therapy to repair the damage done to me by this cult. I am now studying Psychology in the hope of helping others overcome the mental effects caused by groups like this.

I am living in XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX with my Boyfriend XXXXXXXX XXXXX and really have never been closer to the success and happiness I was mistakenly looking for in Scientology.

Sites like yours are important and I wanted to say thanks for keeping up the good work. XXXXXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX I want people to know that I am out and happy and that there is life after this cult.

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