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From: dennis.l.erlich@support.com
Subject: ARNIE & FAIR US
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henri@netcom.netcom.com (henry)

>Grady:
>>But for everyone not yet born who escapes the damage joining this
>>cult out of ignorance of its true goals and aims, it's worth every
>>penny of "damages" or second of incarceration. Freedom is something
>>that people on occasion will give up their life to preserve.
>
>Aytch:
>>i hope in this case we'll see that you can be a hero AND
>>win your damn life BACK from the cult that stole it.

Me:
>    I don't know if you're talking about me, fellas.  But, Grady,
>    that is exactly my attitude.  Since I have nothing to lose, I
>    might as well make my inevitable mental agony (watching the
>    cancer grow and strangle society) count for something.
         
h:
>true, but when you have nothing to lose it's uphill from there.
  
    It sure feels uphill.

>i'm sure you'll feel at least a little better when you win--
>if you've been fucked over, there's nothing quite like revenge
>to take the edge off a fuckover engram.  
 
    Also fondly known as the "Ben Dover Engram".

>it's not exactly a
>warm fuzzy, but there's a cold sense of satisfaction in it
>that _lasts_.  and all of this started with you and snowballed
>from there, so you can take some justified pride in having
>given the snowball its first push down the hill.  now it's
>huge and rolling down straight at them, picking up trees and
>rocks as it goes.  
 
    I'm not really sure the analogy works, but thanks.  I see it 
    more like a public challange I issued to them:  I bet the 
    scienos cannot act in a civilized manner.  Of course, I 
    cheated.  I absolutely knew they couldn't and wouldn't.

>funny thing is, they're the only ones who
>don't see it.
                                                  
    They live in Xenuland.

>    henry, this is a modified Humpty Dumpty.  Since this HD never
>    had a real life *before* it got broke, there is *doubly* no
>    chance of putting it back together.
>
>i've never had a real life myself.  or at least it never seemed
>that way.  funny things is, people probably tend to see you as
>a romantic hero of sorts.  
 
    I do have a mustache and play guitar.

>being a hero ain't all it's cracked up to be.
                                     
    And the pay sucks.

>    My mind will always be tainted from the stench of Hubbard's
>    Droppings.
>
>prolly.  this may be unwanted bullshit, but here goes:
>
>i think right now you're feeling a lot of internalized self-loathing
>from the bullshit you went through.  
 
    I keep my self-loathing private.  It's just when everyone you
    care for turns their back on you, it's hard not to think you 
    don't deserve redemption.  You haven't been hated and reviled
    like I have.  Hope you never experience it.

>this is common in anyone who's
>been fucked over and traumatized.  practically anyone i know whose
>been sexually abused or beaten up by their parents has a lot of this,
>and the truth is you never do recover entirely.  that doesn't mean,
>though, that you can't seize the mess and squeeze some goddamn
>meaning and truth out of it.  and there's a whole lot of truth in
>pain.  it's about the most real thing there is.
                                               
    So my life's replete with truth.

>and in this case, at least you're in a real position to keep it
>from happening to anyone else.  just by having made a big stink,
>probably the worst bad PR the cult's ever seen, you've probably cost
>them zillions of bucks and quite a few souls.  
 
    So it'w worth whatever I go through.

>anyone who's seen
>this going on on the net will _never_ _ever_ join the cult, and
>will do their best to keep anyone they _know_ from joining it.
                                        
    S'all I can hope for.

>and thanks to you, they'll know _how_ to do it, too.
>so thank you, dennis.
 
    Okay, I'll quit moaning.
    
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           Rev. Dennis L Erlich  * * the inFormer * *
      dennis.l.erlich@support.com  +  inForm@primenet.com
                           "tar baby"