Ramoon asked this question on 3/26/2000:
I've been trying for jears now not to give up the fight against negative thoughts about myself and my life. But it keeps getting harder and harder, i feel so lonely, don't know what i want with my life, the very few friends i have left are in a relationship and don't seem to notice i'm alive. My parents think support is pathetic, all i feel is rejection and useless. I try to take pleasure out of little things, like the sun is shining and give love and support to others, finding reasons to make some sense of this selfish world and my place in it. If somebody would still like to talk after this self-pity story, maybe i'm not the one with the problems :) kidding! Love, Ramona Ramonavschendel@hotmail.com
Deedy13 gave this response on 5/12/2000:
Dear Romona ... You say that you 'try so hard at making other people happy'. This is a wonderful trait! But I must say at the start, that you have to be kind to yourself first. When negativity embraces your life, nothing positive can enter -- NOTHING! Apparently, somewhere along the way, people closely linked to you -- have made you feel worthless. After a long enough period of time, you've adopted this notion and begain believing this rediculous rendering yourself. Brain-washing is all it is! You were somebody vital before manipultion took its toll. You can become your rightful self once more, if you only remember that God loves you and that there is truly someone out there that is worthy of you. You might want to read my auto-biography, EMBRACE THE WIND. You can obtain it at WWW.1STBOOKS.COM. I'm not trying to sell my books, but there is so much to understand about your situation, that this letter wouldn't begin to state the facts. My book is most revealing -- raw emotions erupt -- anger and disappointments of a lifetime surface with spellbinding consequences. It is a subject that you can relate to -- all too well! Be kind to yourself ... I'll be praying for you. Darlyn
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Ramoon rated this answer a 4.
Thank you for your understanding reaction, i will read the book, because just to know that somebody has similar feelings makes me feel better. Thanks again, all the best to you... Love Ramoon