apollonia asked this question on 5/7/2000:

I have been depressed for about two years, I am 18 years old, in college. Even though it was hard for me, I finally had the guts to go to counselling this year. I was quickly diagnosed by a doctor (as if I needed it confirmed) to have severe depression. He prescribed a heavy dose of effexor and suggested I keep on with the counselling. But I hated counselling, so I quit, and I refuse to take medication, for a lot of reasons.... and I know rejecting help is my fault, but I still wish I had somewhere else to go... I want desperately to feel good and go on with life, but I jsut can't make myself because on some level I really don't want to get better... I don't feel I deserve it. So now I am backing myself into this aweful place with nowhere to go... any thoughts? (besides suicide...)

biolightman gave this response on 5/11/2000:

Hi Apollonia,

I applaude your courage to check out counselling. Medication, although helpfull for many, is not for everyone.

Counselling is also beneficial, however the skill & experience of the therapist is crucial to success in most cases

An alternative that is accepted as "Main Stream" and covered by most medical insurance is Bright Light Therapy.

Your depression may be linked to a chemical imbalance that is occurring beyond your awareness or control.

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