Anonymous asked this question on 4/8/2000:
I don't really know how to explain what I'm feeling. For the past few years, I have been so depressed all late winter- especially Janurary and February. I have always dreaded that time of year. This year, it was much better. I finally felt like I had a little control of my life again. And now that it is spring- the time when I am usually coming out of my lull- just like that, it happened again. I mean, a week ago, I was on top of the world. And now I'm in this bad mood that I just can't shake no matter what and I hate myself when I get like this. I have every reason to be happy. I haven't fought with my parents or sister in weeks, I have a great b/f and everything is going great, I am making straight A's this quarter, I've been getting enough sleep for once... But I find myself feeling so.. I don't even know how to explain it. I close up and won't let anyone in, even though I am screaming for someone to see. And then, of course, IF someone actually happens to notice that I am throwing one of my little fits, I just say nothing is wrong and then get mad because they just let it go, when that is basically what I told them to do...
It wouldn't be so bad if I actually knew WHY I am so depressed, but I seriously have no clue. I mean, when I get upset over something, it usually is something that shouldn't bother me or normally wouldn't. It's usually just an excuse to be upset because I don't know what is that is really the cause... I don't know. It's not anything that happens or that anyone does. It's just something...
I don't really know what my question is, but I guess I just need to vent and to hear some encouraging words to let me know that I'm not going crazy.
ampito gave this response on 4/15/2000:
When you started talking about yourself, I thought that you probably suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder which is a depression which is brought on by a lack of natural sunlight. It effects a lot of people. However, when you said that you didn't get depressed this winter, but started having mood swings in the spring, I don't think that is the whole answer. You mention that you have a boyfriend. Is there a possibility that you could be pregnant? When a woman is pregnant, her hormones play havoc with her moods and reactions to things. If you are definitely not pregnant, then I would suggest that you get a thorough physical exam because there are a number of physical conditions that could be causing your mood changes. Realizing that there is a problem is always the first step in resolving the problem. I'm happy to see that you are aware that you are acting in an irrational way and want to do something about it before you run people away from you. Let me know how things work out.
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