I read your message called burn in hell bastards you sent to (http://holysmoke.org/hs.htm) Get help from a Professional Psychologist. Don't waste a second. You need to be medicated as soon as possible. Then some deprograming and maybe some higher education in the sciences might be helpful. Tell you're Doctor that 20mg. Prozac in the AM and 50mg. trazadone before bed time seems to be in order. You might also require an antipsychotic drug as well. Make sure to tell him or her you're dillusional and have episodes where you can't dertimine the difference between fantisy and reality!