Anonymous asked this question on 4/15/2000:

Hi, my name is Fabiano I am 18 years-old

My childhood was a kind of sad... I wasn't being abused, but I missed some praising, friends and health activities, such as sports, clubs, etc...

Then I develped, a inferiority complex, and a low self-esteem with the age of 12 to 15

Then I start to use drugs to find confidence, wellness and emotion. age 15-17

After that, I had some spiritual aspects and happenings. I stopped with all drugs. 17

Now, my goal in life is develop a good mind. I have very bad social beliefs in my mind.

But also, I have read tons of books, and had a lot of contacts with many religions, out-of-body center of study and other places

This, makes me think that I am really special, and I have the best common-sense in the world. In my mind now, I think that I have a awesome knoledge and the best common-sense.

I also wear masks in the school, and I feel fake walking in the hallways...

I try to do a lot of mental work to get my mind used to good thoughts... I can say that I have a resonable self-discipline with doing my mental daily routine.

I have no friends, and makes me really sad, because I feel like I have a bad energy.

The weird part that I have a really positive speech, but I have a negative subconsciousness

My main problems are: 1. Not feeling that I am being myself 2. Don't having friends 3. Not living a real life

Do you have a advice, or a experience to tell me... ? I am tired of the same problems over and over again...

Thank you very much, Fabiano

toys999 gave this response on 4/17/2000:

Hi Fabiano,You seem to be a very interesting individual struggling to find a nich in this weary old world. And find one,or several,you will.You mentioned using drugs(what kinds,for how long?) but that you have stopped. You appear very concerned over social ills.Remember,you control yourself and reactions only.I am concerned that you feel lonely and socially ostracized. I am not sure whether you are in a developmental slump,depression or what. Trst me to tell me more.I have a gamut of experiences that are even incredulous to me but have managed to learn from them for the most part. I allow some wounds not to heal..it is beneficial in certain circumstances. I will respond ASAP.

Anonymous asked this follow-up question on 4/17/2000:

toys999:

I used to do marijuana, alcohol, solvecryl(a kind of glue, it was my favorite), tried coke couple times.

I am not depressed right now.

I just need friends. I know a lot of people, but I cannot create bond with people.

Man, You used some difficult words in your answer...

How old are you ? Share some of your experience with me about creating bond with people.

Trust... I don't feel trust in my mind. How can I feel trust in my mind

And, do you know any exercice do input good thoughts.\ I have tons of lists of the good thoughts I need. I just need to find a good way to put them into my mind

Thanx

toys999 gave this response on 4/19/2000:

Dear Fabiano,Glad you knocked off the glue.In my profession,I have worked with kids who have become brain damaged from huffing.It is so incredibly sad. You asked if I knew any exercises for good thoughts. What I do know is if you put trash in your mind that is how you will perceive the world and the people in it. Get out of your room, off the computer for awhile and touch another human being.Age is just a number and not important. Let's just say that my experiences have made me "older" n some ways and very "young" in other ways. I believe we make life more complicated than we have to....and oddly enough,seem to enjoy it.

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