satanicsoul asked this question on 4/1/2000:

Hi, Im kind of new to this "ASKME.COM" place but many of my information pointed this place to be the best place to answer my somewhat "mixed personality". Im a 15 year old mail from Hawaii living in New York and I feel that I have a mixed personailty or a personality disorder or something. Everytime Im around my friends, I always get this feeling that brain is shut off and not working, and everytime I want to tlak or start conversations, it either comes out with a little bit of studdering and/or people think my remarks and conversations or dull or un-entertaining. There have been times where I have gotten into pretty good conversations but there are times where I feel that my "brain isn't working" and therefor, I can't start conversations anymore. I feel sometimes that I have a "smart, kewl,chill image" but there are times when I think that people are just bored of me. There are times when I feel empty inside and times when I feel really happy because of positve feedback people give me, but in the long run, everything that is at the hight of happiness(like true conversations, the feeling that you have friends, the ability to talk without having that negative tension)always comes down to a stop(which mean's my brain stops working)...At the same time, I have found that acting immature only means to gain attention, where as, I find it better when you get into conversations is a better way of getting attention. Therefor, I guess I am also trying to find maturity, but everything in the long run always questions me. and also, everytime Im with my friends, or girlsfriends, I always think of what Iam going to say, or I always think about my image, and in the long run, I have nothing to say sometimes, and people call me quite. I am so hard to explain, can u PLLLEEEAAASSSEEE help mE!!

karunap gave this response on 4/1/2000:

It is hard to say whether or not what you discribe are symptoms of normal adolesence or if you do have some sort of physiological or psychological process going on. Regardless, you need support. I would suggest you ask your parents to let you get a physical medical exam to rule out any physical problem and to let you see a counselor for awhile to get evaluation and support.

Moving to New York, being with new people, transition to adolescence are all traumatic changes. You can work through all of this...you probably mostly need a supportive ear and someone to problemsolve with.