apollonia asked this question on 5/7/2000:

I have been depressed for about two years, I am 18 years old, in college. Even though it was hard for me, I finally had the guts to go to counselling this year. I was quickly diagnosed by a doctor (as if I needed it confirmed) to have severe depression. He prescribed a heavy dose of effexor and suggested I keep on with the counselling. But I hated counselling, so I quit, and I refuse to take medication, for a lot of reasons.... and I know rejecting help is my fault, but I still wish I had somewhere else to go... I want desperately to feel good and go on with life, but I jsut can't make myself because on some level I really don't want to get better... I don't feel I deserve it. So now I am backing myself into this aweful place with nowhere to go... any thoughts? (besides suicide...)

Jason4U22 gave this response on 5/10/2000:

Hi,

I have delt with Depression, and Bi-Polar, for several years now. I too have been where your at now. Feeling hopeless, useless, suicidal, and I didn't want any help, I just wanted to die. Finaly I went, and got some help, which was very hard for me, but I know if I hadn't done it, I seriously dought that I would be here today. I was diagnoised with majour depression/ bi-polar. I was put into the hospital for 7 days. I had to attend classes, which helped tramendously. The classes were how to deal with stress, problems, suicidal thoughts, and communication skills, along with other classes. They put me on Zolof 200mg, Trazadone 150mg, and oxycoten 20mg for pain. See I was in a car wreck about three years ago, and it injured my back, and neck. I can still walk, but my activites are limited. I use to go sky diving, all water sports, and I can't do that anymore, so basicly I had to rebuild my life, and that too contributed to my depression. The thing is that all antidepressants, doesn't work the same on all people. Such as Wellbutrin, it didn't help me at all, but when they put me on the Zolof, The next couple of weeks, I felt like a new man. You also have to not seclude yourself in your room, not be socialble, drink, and feel sorry for youself. If you are feeling suicidal I encourage you to go to the E.R, and now. Depression, is a chemical imbalance. It's a mental illness. If I didn't take my meds. I would be in the mood your in today. You have to work with your Doctor's, and also with your meds. If your taking your meds, and still lay in the bed, your eventually going to come depressed again. Sweetie, I want you to get where I'm at right now. I'm telling you it's possible to live a normal life with depression. You need to seek help. It's ok to do so. I did. I said to myself, Self, this is it, if I don't get any better after this hospital stay, then Im going to end it. Thank God, with the classes, councelours, and staff I made it. I MADE IT, AND SO CAN YOU. I don't usualy do this, but if you ever need to talk, give me a call or email me at jricha24@bellsouth.net I wish you luck, and plase go and get some help.

Jason4U22

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