apollonia asked this question on 5/7/2000:

I have been depressed for about two years, I am 18 years old, in college. Even though it was hard for me, I finally had the guts to go to counselling this year. I was quickly diagnosed by a doctor (as if I needed it confirmed) to have severe depression. He prescribed a heavy dose of effexor and suggested I keep on with the counselling. But I hated counselling, so I quit, and I refuse to take medication, for a lot of reasons.... and I know rejecting help is my fault, but I still wish I had somewhere else to go... I want desperately to feel good and go on with life, but I jsut can't make myself because on some level I really don't want to get better... I don't feel I deserve it. So now I am backing myself into this aweful place with nowhere to go... any thoughts? (besides suicide...)

TheAntiSpice gave this response on 5/7/2000:

Did your doctor find any physical reason for your severe depression ? Is it event-related? Or is it just there? Any three is a possiblity.

I think that you should see a different doctor and tell him or her about what's going on with your mind and body. Tell him or her why you didn't like your last counselor and also why you didn't want to take your medication.

I know taking medication for depression is hard to do. I understand resenting it. It's hard to get in to the habit of taking it because most psychiatric medications don't start to work for a few weeks ,your body has to adjust to them. For that reason , people decide that they don't work and it's not worth hurting their pride over.

I really think that you need to get help. Call a hotline , join a support group , see a different doctor or counselor , do something that gets you out of your house/apartment / dorm and distracts you.

You're too young to die and you deserve to be happy.

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