Anonymous asked this question on 4/15/2000:

Hi, my name is Fabiano I am 18 years-old

My childhood was a kind of sad... I wasn't being abused, but I missed some praising, friends and health activities, such as sports, clubs, etc...

Then I develped, a inferiority complex, and a low self-esteem with the age of 12 to 15

Then I start to use drugs to find confidence, wellness and emotion. age 15-17

After that, I had some spiritual aspects and happenings. I stopped with all drugs. 17

Now, my goal in life is develop a good mind. I have very bad social beliefs in my mind.

But also, I have read tons of books, and had a lot of contacts with many religions, out-of-body center of study and other places

This, makes me think that I am really special, and I have the best common-sense in the world. In my mind now, I think that I have a awesome knoledge and the best common-sense.

I also wear masks in the school, and I feel fake walking in the hallways...

I try to do a lot of mental work to get my mind used to good thoughts... I can say that I have a resonable self-discipline with doing my mental daily routine.

I have no friends, and makes me really sad, because I feel like I have a bad energy.

The weird part that I have a really positive speech, but I have a negative subconsciousness

My main problems are: 1. Not feeling that I am being myself 2. Don't having friends 3. Not living a real life

Do you have a advice, or a experience to tell me... ? I am tired of the same problems over and over again...

Thank you very much, Fabiano

Liveagain gave this response on 4/16/2000:

Not having a real life. Whose definition are you going by? Yours or what you think society demands? That's something only you can answer. Usually, if you're doing what you enjoy and you're content with what you're doing everything else will fall into place. I don't know anything about out-of-body experiences because I've always put my trust and faith in God. Maybe you feel that you're having to wear a mask because you're shielding yourself from any more hurt due to all the hurt you had from your childhood. Just because you have no friends doesn't mean that you have negative energy. Maybe there's just no one that you can relate to on your level. That to will come as you get older. Go to places that have activities that you like to do. That way you will be around people like yourself. Don't compare yourself to others and what material things they have orwhat they have accomplished. That is defeating the true essence of your soul. Each person has their own special gifts and quailities. In doing this, maybe you feel like you don't measure up. Sometimes we're our own worse enemies. If you have one true friend your entire lifetime, then consider yourself to be very lucky. That's just the way life is. All of these things that you're worried about right now, will smooth themselves out as you get older and mature. Just ask God to help you. He will, trust me.

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